BloodMusic . I walk with my shadow I listen to my heart beat.

I'm Reading ?

2012-02-16T10:14:00.000-08:00

Yeah so the government decides to give out RM200 book vouchers for each student, most schools were provided with this privilege including mine. Before I got it there's like tons of things that I wish I could buy but when I really got it, I find myself clueless. I offered my mom whether she would like to get any books she had in mind, but she didn't really gave me an answer. So I spent a hundred on art materials and some other stuff and a few days later some of my course mates suggested to head to a bookstore at KLCC (Kinokuniya) after class, which we did. And after sitting the bus then the monorail and not to mention lots and lots of walking. Was kind of tired and all so we had our brunch later on :/ and finally to our main purpose the Bookstore!!! (haha never thought I'd say this) The place was quite awesome, they provide lots of artsy fartsy books that's mostly a little.... pricey. *sobs* That was quite a headache, having to decide which book is worth the price, which will really be helpful for my course and career etc. So, after having a serious thought (and also based on my budget).. I've decided that I shall not spend my voucher or my money on these books as they also have websites that I can refer from. So I went to the novel section, which is odd for me XD but ended up buying 4 of them, as I have thought clearly that good stories can provide me with more imagination and inspiration of my own. I don't know whether you agree with me or not but oh well. Books I've bought [The Lucifer code, Angels and Demons, and 2 of Percy Jackson's series] I don't know bout you but I can't wait to read them all. And hoping to get more books :D I hurray for my new hobby!!!! Just when I thought I would never ever read.

Pierced!

2011-12-19T10:49:00.000-08:00

yup yup I pierced......... my eyebrow :D

some thought it was stupid, some thought it was cool, and I thought it was totally worth it :P
I know it's not the best things to do in life but just suddenly have this other perspective bout life. We all wanna live in this world achieving our goals and leave with memories we will never forget. So with that sentence right there, I knew I wanted to pierce it without anyone's concern. We all keep saying things we wanna do but we don't do it in the end. Also... am now already in college, few years later I'll be working, so if I don't do it now I won't get the chance anymore. And so I pierced it felt it loved it :) didn't give a damn about what people think at all. But the stupid thing is... my skin is super sensitive, can't eat seafood, can't wear stainless steel, plastic or metal. So after 2 months having my eyebrow pierced I realize my eye was really swollen, a huge lump. So at the end I had to remove the ring and squeeze out all that shiz plus lots of blood. After a few days I wanted to put the ring back, but mummy dearest was kind enough to help me throw it away before telling me. So, it's gone. But still have a tiny scar on my eyebrow.

Halloween Night at TOA

2011-12-19T08:53:00.000-08:00

yeaaap, finally a real Halloween party to attend.
and since it's an Art school, there are more people having on costumes and cosplaying instead of the usual "I'll just go like that" .............

was excited to go, but one thing's killing me. It's hailed on Friday, me and the "Kolamers" just used up all our energy from Monday to Thursday at Pavilion and Friday morning I have class and then I have to rush home to get ready, then rush to my friend's house to do their make up, then rush to the party (exhausting). We're there the whole night mainly enjoying the performances. I was quite happy cause most of my classmates came so did the "Kolamers" and also few of my high school mates. But no matter how I tried to maintain myself I can't help the fact that I haven't been sleeping properly the whole week, around 9-10 o'clock I started feeling dizzy and sooner it got worse, I couldn't feel my legs touching the ground at all like they're completely numb. I'm just worried that if I really faint, my friends will have to go back earlier because of me so I tried to keep it together as long as I can cause everyone's still enjoying the event. All I did was just sitting down listening to the songs perform by a metal band (They were AWESOME!!!) even though I was completely worn out but yeah they rocked it! lol. Afterwards me and my high school buds(+ Izmeq) head to Mcdonald's somewhere... didn't remember where was I. They were all eating and chatting and I.... just slept there with my costume. The next day morning, my whole body ached like hell and I got high fever. Just when you thought it couldn't get much worse, there's Saturday class =.= WHY LA ??? I went for the class, thought I could hold for a few hours. But ended up sleeping and blowing my nose the whole time (sorry Irwin). After I got home I just slept like a dead person. But still enjoyed the party anyways. ^^v

I went as Zombie school girl / Marilyn Manson's sis

High school peeps (except for the Dracula)
Sheranne

Nina, Kisu and Jan

and Teahuh !

some of the "Kolamers"

Vivian

Raymond
Nicholas, Hunn Mei,Kahyan, Wen Ping, Chrissie and Joshua.

performances by one the bands The Pepper Plane

at Mcd [it's like I'm the shinigami starring at Izmeq "you're next" XD]

Flipbook Animation

2011-12-18T11:11:00.000-08:00

Here's my Flipbook Animation assignment, which is one the assignment that I have most interest in. For us AD or MM students we have to do something about promoting a product or something about awareness, IL and DG students have to come out with an interesting storyline. So I know I would never choose to promote a product cause its so boring and so not satisfying, I chose awareness. So I did something about Extinct Animals and advertising for WWF. I had lots and lots of things in mind. But couldn't manage to finish it in time so probably only 20% of what I wanted to portray was in it. I wanted to start it with a person slowly appearing and then we zoom into his/her eyes and then a scene of a tiger cuddling her cubs and then goes out the hunt for food and suddenly runs quickly because it was targeted by hunters and then a scene of blood shed and the cubs were still waiting for their mom to come home and they start to have tears falling and lastly a WWF logo slowly appearing with a few words reminding people to be aware of this issue. BUT even though I had my idea all planned but I didn't realize the date line was getting closer and I started quite late so I couldn't manage to pull that off TwT I regretted like hell. I handed in late but my lecturer refuse to accept my late submission, it was really like a slap in the face. All my own fault for not managing my time, I'm actually not just busy with college stuff I actually needed to do something like help designing a number of pages in a magazine and they'll pay like 300-400 bucks for one stack and certainly wasn't the best time to have both things crash but still, I should have managed my time better. I swear I'm putting my assignments as my number 1 priority. NOTHING ELSE! Even though I didn't get to hand it in, I just wanna share it in my blog since I already did it. :/ evn though it sucks badly. sigh screwed up. Lesson learned.

Kolam Heroes and Heroines XD

2011-12-18T08:58:00.000-08:00

One of the highlights in this semester is the privilege to work on an Anamorphic Kolam Design in Pavilion for this year's Deepavali. It's actually half of our Final Project that contains 40% of our marks. What's interesting about this is that we are required to design a Kolam and then apply Anamorphic art to create a 3D Illusion (look it up at Wikipedia or Google if you have no clue what's Anamorphic) and since it's a 3D view people can actually interact with the design (you'll understand soon when you see za pictures) and also we must complete this final project as a group of 3-4 people (Me, John,Joseph and Owen) so here are some pictures of my group's sketches X)

and here comes the Final outcome *drum roll*

and all of that right there is only half of it D8 *gasp* so this is only part 1. And before we proceed to part 2, all of our designs will be submitted to our lecturers. And among all the lecturers and department heads, they will choose a few works from us students and then combine it into a new one.. that's because our college was invited to create something stunning at Pavilion shopping mall for this year's Deepavali Festival so that design will be the one to appear in Pavilion. Students can volunteer to help out, so I volunteered and thank goodness I really got to participate. So we head to Pavilion for almost a whole week to do this, it was such a fun time cause I get to meet new people and also have the experience to make a Kolam for real. I always wondered how is it like making one, using rice to create something beautiful and symbolic. Now that's something you don't see or do everyday. We did panic quite a few times during the 2nd and 3rd day we were really busy gluing all the rice in place (neatly) and yeah I lost my cutter, scissors and tweezers during this "mission" TwT and not to mention we're all wearing the same shirt for 5 days (eww), cause we need to be in uniform so no choice :( and our hands were all in purple haha but after looking the final result I realize it was all worth it ♥ alright, I shall let the pictures do the rest of talking.

My classmates that participated ^^ Piek Khie, Sher-Min and Wen Ping

This is how Anamorphic works yop!

Tadaa! (Photo by Liann Foo)

This picture even got into iFeel magazine :) besides iFeel, our kolam is also included in many places in the media like, Star newspaper (but they printed the wrong image wth), Sun newspaper, Msn site, News Straits Time (the best out of all the articles) and also in many blogs etc. we're all so proud of ourselves for all our effort. Loved the experience.

Click for more Kolam Pictures

It's a long way to go..

2011-12-16T10:20:00.000-08:00

okay here I shall proceed to
(Photo by Jinshun)

(Photo by John, edited by mua)
Year 1 Semester 2
alright the 2nd semester is when we choose our majoring course, there's Interior Design (ID), Illustration (IL), Digital Animation (DG), Advertising & Graphic Design (AD) and Multimedia Design (MM). And I majored at AD as mentioned earlier, was struggling between IL and AD :( but in the end I chose AD. This semester includes more drama and "adventure" compared to the 1st semester. The 1st semester was more peaceful and quiet. In this class there's only 16 of us, starting of this semester I didn't really get along with my mates that well, I was just being in my comfort zone and I barely hang out with them after class I would straight away head home. Even lecturers said we're too quiet O.O seriously lack of bonding. But sooner or later the relationship between us classmates was slooowly improving. I start watching movies with them and have lunch and stuff. But even though we get together, on a personal level there's still a gap. Like we're just classmates and not "BFF" material. But since we're gonna be in the same class for another 2 more years, I hope things go smoothly :) There's been some drama going on... sometimes, but overall they're alright. Just one thing I hope WILL change, is the attitude of some of my mates, they're too passive at times where it's not really beneficial or mentally healthy, and am certainly not encouraging it because we're all learning about advertising. Most important thing about this course is not just designing a product or a banner, it's how you can use your words to convince your clients and consumers to buy your concept and idea. So being extremely quiet really doesn't help in anyway. I should know because I used to be that passive girl back in primary school, I was so quiet that one of my classmates thought I was a mute. Teachers would get furious at me cause when they want me to read or explain something I can only hear my heart beating louder and louder and I will never open my mouth (sounds really exaggerating right?) but the point is I totally know how glossophobia feels like, you're afraid that people will judge you or tease you when you say something, afraid of humiliation, embarrassments or eye contact. Somehow you feel safe when you don't speak, and another reason is of course you're weak in English, so you prefer not to talk even when the lecturer is so mad they wanna eat you alive you just remain silent anyways. Well it's not easy to overcome this bad habit/fear but it's possible if you're putting in effort to change.
Anyways, the things we learn during this semester is Figure Studies again (but this time more concentrated on portraits), Drawing 2 (Still Life paintings), Visual and Communication instead of Design Fundamentals and Language class. Even though compared the the 1st semester the sujbects are less, but the pressure and date lines are monsters!!!! D8 lol. We have really interesting assignments like Name card designs, Flipbook Animation, Anamorphic Kolam Design, Silkscreen etc

this right there is the Name card design. we have to carve whatever design we want on erasers and using it as if they're chops. I love this assignment the most. It's really fun when you get the hang of it :D try it !

Next post will be blogging about Anamorphic Kolam Design.

Maaajor update P:

2011-12-16T09:20:00.000-08:00

Heeeeyyyyyy I'm finally back! Been busy "dating" someone called Assignments lately so I neglected my blog for a few months. There's gonna be lots of new posts soon cause it's my sem break and currently have all the time I want to blog as crazy as ever ^^v AWWYEAHHH

Well honestly I realize 90% of my peeps don't blog anymore :( and yeah probably no one will read my blog again but what the heck who cares about trend, I love my blog! It's like the mozzarella on top of my pizza :D one of the things I treasure, cause it contains memories and silly things that always cheers me up when I look back :')

Alright so here I go...

(got this picture from one of my classmates: Derrick Chia)
Year 1 Semester 1 in The One Academy
This is the beginning of my college life and this semester is considered as my foundation so firstly I'd like to say that I have lovely classmates, they're mostly nice, not too loud and they know how to mind their own business. But I wasn't really close with most of them (cause I was being the unfriendly bitch yea!) I kept quiet most of the time, cause I was trying to avoid hanging out too much and yeah I don't wanna let it effect my work (which ish killing meh!!!) and since I'm already this lazy and easily distracted girl let's not make it worse right? XP Although there were tons of assignments and projects that kept me away from most of the fun stuff I used to do (especially sleeping) it's still exciting and fun cause I learn something new in every lesson, and love that now I'm in an Art school weird is no longer weird anymore haha I love looking at other people's artwork, it lets you know how different everyone is with their own drawing habits, techniques and style. Also, studying here... I've spotted a few lecturers that i really adored especially Zelin, the one who teaches my class Figure Studies and Drawing 1. I think he's awesome because he's so talented and he has received a number of awards and interviews etc but what makes him so awesome is his modesty. He doesn't show off, he just does his job nicely and he's a great lecturer, because of his encouragement I found the drive that I've lost for many years. Thank you so much it really is a pleasure having a lecturer like you. And also Miss Helena who teaches Design Fundamentals, I have to admit at first I thought she really didn't like me because she has this expression glued to her face that always makes us think she's in a bad mood, but after a few lessons I realize she's actually pretty awesome. She may be a little harsh when she critiques on your work but she's not too harsh on the marks... sometimes. After having her as my lecturer I realize the more critiques you get, the better you can be :) The only bad habit in mind is my punctuality (I'm not good with date lines XD) but yeah gotta change that or I'll soon regret it badly. I wish I could upload some of my works here but I haven't scan em. So maybe next time. We learn things like Design Fundamental which is something more to Graphic Design (I find this the only subject that pressures me the most TwT), and also basic drawing like Figure Studies(drawing human figures duh) , Drawing 1 (Still Life drawings with pencil), History of Art (Looove this subject I duno why most of the ppl find it boring when it's so fascinating) and of course Language class and Malaysian Studies which is compulsory. This semester went quite well and thank goodness I didn't fail anything but still mostly B (I hate getting B or B+ it's like you're good but not good enough) geramnya. Mmm not much drama going on in class so I guess there's not much left to talk about either. Ow yeah another great part of this is that I have a fun card to Sunway Lagoon lol so I can actually go in anytime I want and I don't have to pay, but we don't usually go anyways haha so it's a waste :/ One of the tragic things that happened during this period was that, Sheera one my lovely dogs passes away and I wasn't entirely ready to lose her at that moment. I tried my best to get help from the vet but unfortunately it was too late for us. There was blood coming out of her butt non-stop the whole morning. My heart ached terribly for not taking her to a vet constantly, if not this would be prevented. The cause of her death is because she has worms in her stomach called ring worms and they're found in many places like grassy fields and also dog poop (Dog's who have this sickness will have worms like these in their poop). So when other dogs come sniffing it the worms will enter through the nose and stays in the stomach and they grow more and more until the dogs dies. So to everyone who has a pet cat or dog remember to bring them to a vet at least once in 2 months to check up. I'm sorry Sheera. RIP.

Malaysia, negaraku

2011-07-11T10:53:00.000-07:00

I can never be more proud of my country, the Heroes and Heroines during Bersih Rally. At first I didn't want to get too into this issue, but when I watched many videos of protesters being sprayed with chemicals and tear gas, my eyes teared up for their courage and patriotism. The impact of the whole idea was obviously a lot bigger than anyone would expect, I saw many scenes of people helping one another regardless of their race and polices were just day dreaming after the beating... this is what we need all along.. Unity, Love and Respect this is the beauty of being a multiracial country and not some commercialized slogan with no concern, this is by far the best thing that has ever been done in Malaysian history. The name of Bersih WILL live on, I don't understand the orders given by the government.. polices spraying chemicals, hitting people, yelling at people etc... those scenes were truly heartbreaking for anyone to watch, no one is provoking the government. And as a government you should know what you stand for and play your part correctly and not applying childish actions towards your people. Being In denial is never the answer. Indeed the Oppositions are using their great strategy to defeat you, but doesn't mean that you can act like you're unstoppable by abusing your powers, because without us you WILL be nothing... and you'll just make yourself look like a pathetic sore loser. And not just that, whatever actions that has been set by the government represents the image of our country. So stop hurting Malaysians, stop dirty politics, stop embarrassing Malaysia and stop being selfish. This is a freaking DEMOCRATIC country. A lot of things has to change before Malaysia really collapse.

As quoted by Niccolo Machiavelli - It is better to be feared than loved if you cannot be both.

BUT... in this case

Malaysians don't have to be tricked or brainwashed by the Oppositions, because we LOVE our country, more than we FEAR you. And we certainly LOVE Opposition Leaders, because they obviously don't FEAR you. true freedom fighters!!!

Malaysians! VOTE for a brighter future!

Malaysia Boleh!

Reunion: BBQ Party

2011-06-17T02:49:00.000-07:00

Hello my precious blog I missed you so much, do you miss me?

and hello my fellow viewers, how's life turning out for ya? Great? terrible? meh? well whatever your answer is I hope things turn out right in the end alright :D hang in there pal.. we're all struggling so you're not alone :) . So... what can I share with you today hmmmm, well I guess I don't have much to share for now cause I'm pretty busy, even though now I'm blogging but part of me is still rushing to do assignments, it's like I'm married to a control freak with high demands. Well besides college stuff, At least I had a nice bbq party with my lovely high school buds. It's really great to see them again, I know everyone's extremely busy and I'm just happy that everyone can make it. It was fun, being able to see you guys, chat and just spending time with yal it was great. Hope we'll have more things planned soon ♥

Welcome to the real world (of College)

2011-05-17T08:02:00.000-07:00

Hey yo peeps, I've been waiting to blog this for a long time, but it didn't turn out anything like I expected. As you know from my previous post.. I made up my mind to study Graphic design, so now am officially a student at The one academy. An what a "great" impression it was, especially the management.. maybe I overestimated this college, oh well. Firstly, we went there for a few times before I registered, the first two times we're accompanied by a counselor named Alex.. Alex was friendly and nice. The third time me and my sister went there to register, we went to the counter and it's like we're invisible.. no one bothered even though we were standing there, just because we look like some good for nothing dumbass kids? and I'm not exaggerating, you can go and see for yourselves... when you're parents are there or when you're dressed up nicely they automatically ask you for assistance. So yeah anyways we asked them and the lady said Alex wasn't in so another counselor attended us. Then the counselor which is a girl with long curly hair and spectacles was a little pushy, I had to fill up the form and there's so much to write she kept rushing me to finish it like hello? if you're busy then you can go and do your things first, no need to rush me when I have to write a short essay on why I want to enter TOA etc. Urgh, after I got my offer letter we went there again to pay the fees... and the amount written on the letter was different from what both counselor said. On the paper itself was RM5500 for the first sem, then Alex said RM6700, then the other counselor said RM7300 and then the letter was RM7390 (+ RM1000 my sis paid earlier) so from RM5500 to RM8390 ?? My sister was so angry and scolded them and they were still not taking us seriously.... WTF? I was there with my sister I heard it too so my sister was definitely not wrong bout the amount. Secondly, the induction programme... it was alright I just don't like the fact that they don't inform properly about the queue.. you seriously just expect us to know which is our queue ? Come on we're new comers here? So I just line up at the first one since I thought it's all the same, after lining up for about 10 minutes, I'm actually at the wrong queue. So I had to go and find someone who can tell me where the heck am I suppose to stand. Thirdly, the timetable... students have to check everything online, and download online. This is by far the most ridiculous thing ever, I found the timetables but I don't know which is mine. So the next day I called the office to ask which is my class.. I called 9am and the operator kept saying everyone is busy etc so I called several times still the same, and finally they picked up at 11.00am and when I'm talking halfway the girl transferred me to someone else and this girl wasn't being helpful either talking me crap. Then I put down the phone since the girl said it's not her business, my mom was tired of their poor service then she called again and they immediately check for me. Do you know how it feels at my point of view? What the hell man and because of that I missed my first class. So far that's how bad it was.

Back to square 1

2011-05-05T01:16:00.000-07:00

HELLO WORLD!!! man this has been the longest time I'm away, I don't know what's wrong with my PC it just wouldn't let me log in, so now I have to use my sister's laptop. Anyways I've finally made a decision bout my studies, so relieved that it's finally off my chest. In year 2010 I've been working full-time for a year to keep myself busy plus earning my own allowance and also think about making that decision. Seriously didn't expect it to be this hard, over the year I've been given 3 options Architecture, Graphics/Illustration and Fashion Marketing. In the beginning I wanted something different, I nearly decided to go for Mass Comm or Business. Well it wouldn't be a bad choice per say it can be challenging but there's no spirit. Mass Comm is about being very sociable, out going and sometimes they put on masks, Business is always thinking about self benefits, scheming or whatever just for your own needs. And I 'm not cut out for that for a lifetime, I can't stand putting on smiley faces when I'm down just to please others who don't give a damn bout me and be materialistic just to get what I want and not care bout other people's situation [most of them, not all]. Cause if I were to succeed in that career I have to do it every time. So back to square 1 aka "safe zone", Architecture is being creative with buildings and it isn't easy at all, at first I didn't quite like it, previously I'd be like "meh~ what's so special about it all buildings look the same" but now I can see the creativity in buildings, not precisely but it's absolutely extraordinaire. But I'm not choosing this course cause it's a very long course and definitely tough, I had lots of info bout it from my cousin who is an Architect but I don't have that sort of financial support but even though I'm not choosing this, I'm glad I know something bout building structures now. Fashion Marketing is very awesome I absolutely love love love it. It's the kind of job that you can't get tired of even though it's very tiring. Girl's love dressing up dolls when they're little and when they're older they wanna dress up friends so yeah it's in our blood haha. Fashion Marketing is not about making the garments but organizing the whole runway show from beginning til the end, if I'm being recognized I can manage outlets like LV and Gucci or even have my own brand... that's been something I want long ago, my own brand. But! sadly I won't be able to take this course as well, because it's very expensive we did found the perfect college and because they're so good at the fashion line that the price is way out of my league man. So nevermind I don't have a choice I must pick Graphic design/Illustration, but it's actually pricey too but I think I've wasted enough time already so yeah here I come TOA ! Hope this will be a fun experience :) I will do my best and not let my sister down!! Whatever it takes Ima knock down any obstacles that are in my way and I'll definitely give my all and see where we can go from there.

so... What's it gonna be?

2011-02-24T00:44:00.000-08:00

Unbelievable, I thought that taking a one year break would be enough for me to figure out what do I really want and need. I really thought I did, but really I haven't. At first my sister was trying to get me into everything other than arts like finance, mass communication, architecture, etc but she doesn't call it ''forcing'' but her ''opinions''. Plan B was Graphic design and since I couldn't find a Plan A to go with, I took Plan B seriously. Not that I don't like that idea, I do. Just not loving it as a lifetime career that's all. hm... what confuses me more is that, I've been feeling so uncertain bout this for so long and I've asking my ancestors for a sign a hint every night before I sleep, but I didn't seem to get any response and maybe I should just stick with Graphic design oh well so much for that. Until that night during my birthday I had a dream that felt so real as if I actually did it. In the dream I was at home sitting on my mom's favourite rocking chair my mom, dad and sister were standing in front of me, and I was telling them off by saying 'I don't care, I just wanna study Fashion design.' And none of them stood up to me. When I woke up, I still remembered that dream clearly. Since then, it's been bugging me, was that just a silly dream or were they trying to tell me that I shouldn't change my mind and give up on what I love, just because someone disagrees? Definitely I'd be more than happier if I could be a rich Fashion Designer having people wear my brand, it was my biggest ambition during primary and secondary school, but because people are always way to shallow to believe in great possibilities so I decided to look for another path. I don't know why something like this would appear in a time like that, was it just a little girl's fantasy that I should forget about, or should I be headstrong do whatever makes me happy and be confident that I have what it takes to be successful.To be or not to be? That is the question.

2011-01-29T02:56:00.000-08:00

HEY ALL!!!! yeah sorry it's been a while since I've posted a new blog post, but it wasn't my fault entirely... it was either my computer's fault or streamyx. I can't open my blogger and that's why I couldn't do my new year post. But anyways, since it's too late to talk about new year, I'll just talk bout Chinese New Year. Well~ since I was little girl til now I didn't really enjoy it because mainly I can't wear black and I don't social really well with my relatives? hm.. and I'm more of a urban girl so..... being forced to stay in my hometown can get really boring (no decent shopping malls, no cool hang outs, no freedom etc DUH of course it's boring.) and I hate gambling and also people who gamble too much. So yeah, you can tell how uncomfortable I am during Chinese New Year. But what I like about it is the awesome Lion Dance, Red Packet as a blessing from grandparents and parents, Chinese New Year food made by my relatives, they aren't the type pf people that I can click with, but I have to admit I love their cooking. As for this year's CNY shopping I bought a few black hehehe (I couldn't help it) but I did buy other colours I don't wanna be a symbol of "bad luck" anyways. Anywhos Happy Chinese New Year to all. See yal next time :)

find your True Determination

2010-12-09T09:27:00.001-08:00

Something motivating to share with others...
I may not be Picasso, Van Gogh, Leonardo da vinci or anyone near famous nor memorable. I'm not trying to boast about my artwork. But I truly love doing art... when I'm emotional, when I'm confused, when I'm inspired, when I'm alone or even when there's a lot of people around me. It's what I do, my lifeline my passion... whenever I draw or paint, I'm just in my world with no one to judge or rate. Well the point here is, you won't know for sure what you're great at before really giving in all your concentration and effort.... whenever I draw something now... people say I'm gifted, but the long journey that they didn't know was that I wouldn't be proven gifted if I gave up the first place....

this is a drawing of mine when I was in kinder garden, btw if you don't know what is this... it's actually Sailor Moon, haha she looks soooo retarded.

***************************Transformation begins***************************

when I was in high school (anime)

(customized stuff)

(portrait)

certainly is a big difference ey? the journey wasn't easy... I had to draw and erase constantly, observe very little details, have tons of practice, take criticism and be headstrong when nuisance get in the way but here I am now, and the journey has still a long long way for me to go. So I can be the best I can be no matter people say. I will go the distance... now find yours :) follow your intuition.

ps: always remember (Good is the greatest enemy of Great.) I love this quotation.

Perry bear

2010-12-09T09:18:00.001-08:00

the fluffy puppy!!!!!!

is now the naughty fur ball...aww so cute!

a picture of him pooping ^w^"

the reason for posting this is because it's my little baby's birthday is on this month (29 December) he's finally turning 1 years old, Perry is growing up so fast TwT and I'm so happy. Love you smelly rascal *muacks muacks muacks*

Seriously kill me... just kill me.

2010-11-30T09:21:00.000-08:00

Can't believe I'm saying this but why the hell is it so fucking hard to have fun when I'm allowed to? It's like I'm paranoid or something, I'm always thinking that there's something I haven't complete when there actually isn't. Every time I wanna just lay back and clear my mind by napping, voices in my head reminding me that I can't be slumber, because I have something to pursue when I'm actually so darn free of any errands. Tahhhhh and screaming doesn't get tension off my back, not one bit. I should be letting out my inner soul.... screaming and jumping, stay up all night drawing, watch TV, downloading illegal songs or watching some weird + epic videos on YouTube to enjoy the freedom that i have right now, before I get busy with college stuff. I wanted to be free so much when Pn Ung is holding me back in high school and at home when my mom refuses to let me go out. Now nothing is stopping me from partying, dating, hibernating or day dreaming but... did I really lost my high school spirit? when I just got to be 18??

I need my life back.. fast.

This isn't the day

2010-11-29T07:31:00.000-08:00

Didn't come out right...
thought miracle would give me a shot
but even miracle has their limits
I have nothing to brag nor to sigh about
no one to blame for feeling not good enough
but that's just how it is when you don't see yourself
or prove to yourself..
sorry is not gonna cure it
but it's the only suitable word
laughing out miseries
but that feeling can't get off of me
for it will always remain history
until the day I prove it.

My tears shed for you

2010-11-24T10:23:00.000-08:00

Just watched a video of Bill and Tom (from Tokio Hotel) supporting PETA Campaign about awareness against animal cruelty in circuses. I'm touched that celebs would be concerned enough to try understand the pain animals go through, because usually famous people around the world "love" doing charity only for a good reputation. But in this case it's totally different... by the way they answered in the interview and especially the part where Bill mentioned about the first dog they adopted, the previous owner tormented the dog badly and was in a critical condition. It's really sweet of them to do this photo shoot. I respect them more and more for not just being able to make music.... also able to let go of temptations and becoming a vegan. But well, as Bill shares the history of his dog, I can't help but think of my first dog, who I love so much up til now. I'm not sure did I mention about him in my blog, but I'm just going to introduce him from starting til the day it lasted.

Firstly, since it's a he of course it's a male. Secondly, we named him Dino because he's got a patch of white fur like a diamond on his head. He is the awesomest thing that came into my life. In my childhood days, everyday I feel like I'm in hell.... In the morning, besides being waken up by an alarm clock.... it's usually because my mom and dad arguing or fighting downstairs that wakes me. After that, I go to school and I get picked on by all my classmates (53 classmates to be exact) well except 2 or 3 of them. The teachers are the worst, teachers are suppose to never give up on their students and also take action when someone is being bullied everyday in class. And my "beloved" teacher Cikgu Anuar, seriously thank you.. thank you so much for bullying me together with the class and your sarcasm is soemthing I can't forget. When I get home my sister tortures me because my mom favors me more. At night mom and dad starts throwing things at each other. And I have no idea how to do my homework, and the next day the same routine starts all over again. And one day I saw him in my house when I just came back from school, turns out he followed my sister all the way back home. I was so happy to have him, but my parents hate having pets. It was tough keeping him when my parents are complaining all the time, but when I'm with him all my miseries just suddenly went missing and I could instantly smile naturally when he wiggles his tail and looks at me with those gorgeous eyes. Every moment I spent with him was gold, the feeling remains forever for he is the only thing that made me happy without any criticism or ignorance. Until one day Dino when into my neighbour's house and murdered all his flowers [what a gay ass lol] the next day after I went to school my parents took the chance to throw him away at usj 11 to make sure he doesn't find his way home ever again. When I got home that day I couldn't find him, I called my parents and they told me what they did for that whole day I just sat by the door until dinner time hoping he finds his way back.... but in the end he didn't. From that day onwards I never get to see him ever again... I gave my parents a piece of my mind and they felt guilty so the next day morning at 7am, me and my dad went to usj 11 by foot until evening time and still no sign of Dino.... and there is where it lasted for me. What hurts the most is that my parents couldn't even spare me one small favor to keep me happy. Everyday when I eat... I wonder if he's hungry.. is he drinking water from the puddle? is he eating from the garbage? When I sleep with my blanket on I wonder if he's cold at night... When it's raining heavily I wonder does he have a place to shelter him or would anyone take him in? Would he think that I don't love him anymore?

ps: for Tokio Hotel fans... please grow up, stop with the "I think I wanna be a Vegan" shit, if you're doing it because of Tokio Hotel, it will never last more than a month. Because you're not seeing it at their point of view, you're just trying to be like them just so you can get closer to them and FYI being a vegan isn't easy because you can't eat meat, bread, ice cream, cake or anything that includes eggs or milk. I myself love animals too... and because of that I turn vegetarian (not vegan), which was my strong decision and I don't care what others say or do.. it took me like 3-4 months to control myself from craving meat because I was a BIG meat eater before this. Thinking of how they're going to be separated from their own kind and being killed just so I can eat them seems so selfish and ignorant, that's pretty much how I got over my cravings. It's not about how easy or hard it is, it's how determine you are about these kind of issues.

Away from the internet for now

2010-10-27T22:13:00.000-07:00

Just to notify u guys that I'll be away from the Internet during October til the end of November so don't be shocked if you can't find me... I already posted that I won't be using Facebook (or any other social network) before I deactivate my account. I have something very important going on for these two months so I don't want to be distracted as I am now running out of time to concentrate, if any of you are guessing that I'm disappearing just so I can get attention then you probably don't know me at all and you're thinking too much I'm not as vain as you are. By the way if there's anything important just text me or call me... my phone is okay now.

Ps: don't miss me too much yea, just kidding.

Was that the best you got?

2010-10-01T01:17:00.000-07:00

Hello again, today's topic is about how singers brought out the Music.
note: this could be offending, I might just be judging your all time favourite celebs. So skip if you can't handle my criticism

Okay mainly I want to point out is that... a lot of singers with lack of talents are earning extremely more than what they are capable of. They don't deserve all the glory and awards they've gotten, because they clearly didn't serve us real music.. they just serve us commercialized shit.. everything is so commercialized.. Ugh I hate things that are just covered up with a nice packaging. Songs nowadays are just plain stupid... as long as you have "the face" you're qualified to be a singer, stuff like auto-tune, dancing, Photoshop, make up and repeated lyrics that makes no sense can make you the next Justin Bieber/Rihanna. Although Lady Gaga is on top of the world right now but I still love to refer her as Stephanie Germanotta... songs from Lady Gaga is a trend... but songs from Stephanie Germanotta is pure music. What's wrong with you Gaga? why ditch real talent for popularity? I would have been a huge fan of yours if you stayed true to yourself and not be some freak that people go crazy for. Katy Perry.... awesome songs and a gorgeous lady, but in live? the vocals really sucks, I was very shocked to hear you being AWFUL in live performances. The off pitch is continuous and sometimes she sounds like a dude... no offence Katy I will still listen to your songs but I will never appear in your concerts. Same goes to Rihanna.. perfect voice and sexy music videos but during live you can barely hear her... her vocals are always unstable like shes having sore throat. Rap music puhhhh don't get me started, people like Ja Rule, Lil Wayne, T-pain, Jay-z, Soulja Boy and Yankee Daddy... they're so filthy rich just because they sing really fast... how is it fair for people who can really sing? and I can't stand it the most when Taiwan singers such as Wilber Pan trying to be one of them... you will always remain a wannabe so stop rap and more singing dude. And the most shocking artist would be Paramore... like What The Hell??? even rockers are using auto-tune... uh real music is close to extinction seriously. The sad truth.. now I'm always looking for old songs like Air Supply, Deep Purple, Elvis Presley, Bee Gees, Beatles, The Carpenters, Cranberries etc where did real music landed ? sigh I'm too lazy to go any further.. I'll just end here. bubye guys

Bring back the music people!

fear of Love?

2010-09-30T11:11:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wish I would hate them instead of loving them than to feel this again... really I do

Once you fall in love with something or someone, there's bound to have that one day to bring it to an end, especially when you did not see it coming and no matter what you do you just feel numb and everything seems meaningless to you. I used to think that I don't need to be 18 to be more mature.. but I take that back. I always thought different people comes with different mindset and therefore I thought I was mature enough to make my own choices to know what's right and what's not, but now I understand a lot more even if it's 1 - 2 years differences. When it comes to Love.. it's just so weird that people know that it's going to end sooner or later but they still give in so much even if it hurts them. Or maybe they just want something to kill the loneliness inside so they couldn't resist. There are so many things I really don't want to lose, friends, family, acquaintances, my beloved pets and all the people that came around.

-Family-
I hated my Dad when I was little, because of all the things he could have done but didn't... that hatred kept growing that I start having ridiculous ideas, also because of "the life of a nobody" that I've always live in.. I wish my parents would just get a divorce and just leave me alone because I really hate to crying at the corner, I hate that it's never been anything like I love You or Take care or I'm Sorry in the family, almost everytime we "interact" it's for arguments only. Well let's skip the boring childhood, right now the biggest problem would be me, because I need to move on to college next year... A lot of discussion but not really a conclusion at the end. It's my own fault and also financial related, but recently I was touched by my dad... after so many years of not accomplishing anything, and now he's finding ways to save up money so that I can enter TOA the school of my dreams.... it's probably the only Art school that I look up to in Malaysia, from where I stand now.. it's awfully hard to even think of entering such a place, but my dad really surprised me... I mean his not a young man anymore and his going out sitting the bus from Subang to KL everyday trying to save money for me and night times he teaches English lessons somewhere in Taipan until 10pm. I know he should have done this like 10 - 20 years ago and it's his own fault for being too late, but still I want to say I'm sorry for being so disrespectful, I really am sorry, no matter what you're my dad and that won't change... I wish I had the guts to tell you this in person but I guess I'm just too wimpy to do so. Nowadays I'm always thinking how am I going to take it when the time comes and you and mom will leave me... forever. I don't think I'm ever ready for that kind of news. I don't think my sister is too.

-Friends-
Some are worth dying for, some deserves a special place, some are meant to be just friends, some are for you to bear with.... I'm not the popular girl who's got tons and tons of friends or admires, but what I'm having now is enough for me... Everyone is busy seeking true friendship and relationships , in a way I find it kind of hurtful as well... when you're in a relationship you get break ups OR if you get married you worry about things like cheating or when the day he/she leaves you forever. When you meet new friends... you have laughs and unforgettable memories, but soon more and more of them let go of that friendship for their own benefits and you just don't feel that important anymore, OR if you have great buddies that stand by you at all times wouldn't it be a pain when you see them taking their last breath? hmp am I being creepy? or I'm just thinking too much?

To everyone please remember this the worst part of loving something is that you're not assure whether you're ready enough to say goodbye, and by then you'll probably go insane lol.

new motto - Love life as you know it, cause that's just how life is being made.

Legend of Donnie Yen 甄子丹

2010-09-24T07:52:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Thanks to my cousin Jia Hui I get to watch Legend of the Fist today, Thank You! What an awesome show no wonder the newspaper article mention that it was better than Ip Man, to me both movies are extremely incredible and touching no comparison. The reason why people think that Legend of the Fist was better is because more history involves and more details on how the Japanese tortured the Chinese like you can really imagine how much the Chinese suffer during the war after watching this movie. In this movie of course you will notice Donnie Yen the main actor in the show, if he could hear me I want to say "I salute you!" You're the kind of person that is proud of being what you are, and that's the first reason why you are Awesome. Second is because of your Kung Fu skills of course way better than Jackie Chan (no offence Jackie) That's what I call the real stuff!!! Donnie Yen a martial artist, actor, film director, action choreography etc, he has been in showbiz for a long time but he has not been the noticeable one among all the actors such as Bruce Lee, Jackie Chan, Jet Li or Michelle Yeoh.... he appeared in a lot of Hong Kong movies with small roles at first so no one even knew him at that time. Until the movie Ip Man came out... it became a big hit and that's when he got to shine and do even better at what he does best, don't worry Donnie you've work very hard for your career but it finally paid off. Thumbs up for you! Keep on going!!! I'll always be a Fan of yours.

Moon cake Fest + Gathering

2010-09-20T07:36:00.000-07:00

Welcome back everyone! Really feels good to be with all those pretty faces again after so long, Oh Gosh I miss those faces so much. Well the gathering went great but it was suppose to be an early celebration of the "Moon cake Festival" which it didn't even seem like we did anything related to the Festival except for the candles and paper lanterns. We had an awesome night with our lame jokes, crazy personality, updating with everyone's life, trash talking, cam whoring, Domino's Pizza, fizzy drinks and the famous mash potato tradition ha ha it's been so long since I've been so sampat, unfortunately we couldn't stay outdoors much longer because of the rain and we all end up in a mamak at USJ 9 then Joben fetch me, Mei Ki and Lee Min home on the way to send the Puchong girl home we had a great laugh as well and I reached home at 2am. Yeah good times good times.. too bad it ended so soon but it will be kept in my blog and my memories for a long long time. Thank you Mei Ki for organizing this... it really made everyone happy. [Jmie! you really should have come.]

this isn't Facebook but I would love to tag all the people who participated on this not so silent night

☆ Joan Liow
☆ Evon Chin
☆ Felisha Leemin
☆ Xuan Suann
☆ Joseph Benjamin
☆ Ng Tzeshen
☆ Eric Wan
☆ Darren Mok
☆ U Jing Ong Kumar
☆ Wayne Yap
☆ Selva Tony Ong Kumar
☆ Joshua Jireh Len
☆ Isaac Goh
☆ Jason Thin
☆ Vicent Leong {stupid invader}
☆ Jaymie Tay [absent]
☆ Ushamala Ganesan [absent]

..... I am still waiting for those pictures darn it.

If only...

2010-09-14T01:32:00.000-07:00

If only I...

could live without any sleep.. and not feel tired at all, 70% of my time wouldn't be so wasted.
could live without eating... and not feel hungry.... I wouldn't have harm anything.
could determine what is really happiness.. and where to seek
could erase the flaws and do it over... perhaps they could smile... I would too.
could experience it all in just one day and no using more than one lifetime... how great that be.
could find someone who truly cherish for an eternity.. I'd sacrifice
could make at least one of my biggest dreams come true.. I promise I won't frown again.
could persuade the people that money isn't valuable enough to change you.

If only I could have everything... I'll save them all, especially those who feel unwanted, look downed and lost in this Mad World.

Loneliness is my best pal

2010-09-12T02:25:00.000-07:00

the feeling you get when you can't handle that much ignorance... removed in those pictures, erased in memories not included anywhere, suddenly everything is so silent and you start thinking and thinking, can't skip class and make up ghost stories, can't even get detention by the discipline teacher even if you want to..... I thought I was the only one who miss those foolish past times that screams: " Yeah, I'm a trouble maker so what? it's still better than your boring 50++ year old life :P " like that time Me + sampat gang got into huge trouble for drinking alcohol in class hahaha lol that's really something to remember, Mei Ki & E von placed aluminium paper inside a microwave and Darren's hair almost got burnt just because of home made cookies or that time where I came to know the talented people of 5J I spend a lot of time with them in the library trying to get great ideas and imply it on a piece of paper that we call art :) after that I even get to join them as the TCDs! form 3 was a very dramatic year among that 5 years lol, high school is a lot of things but despite all those minor things we call obstacles it was pretty darn awesome for me... sure I wasn't the Head Prefect, Head Liberian, Most Popular student or a Top Student nor did I won any Medals or Trophies. At the end of it that's not the 1st thing you picture. Although a lot of us want to keep it that way being young and foolish but we can't turn back time and time does not wait for anyone we must step forward for a better future+family+career it's alright you guys.. life goes on, loneliness happens to everyone.... so it's okay to feel lonely sometimes.

We meet again

2010-09-11T21:07:00.000-07:00

after high school, everyone has automatically separated from one another.... college, form 6, work, national service etc... for me it's been more than half a year since I've been out with the high school gang. Until yesterday :) I planned to watch a movie at Pyramid... because it's been 3 to 4 months since I've entered a Cinema for a movie TwT I really miss it badly there's so many movies I wanna watch but couldn't make it. So yesterday I planned this simple outing with a few people Jaymie, Mei Ki, E von, Kah Chun, Darren and Joshua (E von's bf) to watch a movie... actually I wanted to watch "Phua Chu Kang the movie", I'm usually not a fan of watching comedies in the cinema but I thought it would be great to have a big laugh after so long for not seeing each other. Buttttt.... Mr Wan had to change my choice of movie whatever man Kah Chun.... so I hate to feel that I making someone watching something they don't like so fine after 1 hour of discussion the conclusion was "Going The Distance" since almost everyone agreed. I'm not much of a Romance fan either but the movie came out alright, quite funny too. After that it's photo sticker time since Jaymie requested as a very memorable memory, 6 person sqeezing in a small photo booth isn't easy you know, and then the decorations~ Jaymie and Kah Chun got too carried away until the time ended before we were finished but it still turned out nice. By that time it was already 6.45pm so some of us have to head home... so that's pretty much that.. hope there's more chance to go out again. Lastly!!! I hope Jaymie and Darren love the present that me n Mei Ki got them! a super dazzling hot pink watch and the hamsap t-shirt.

Ps: To those who I didn't include don't feel left out because

TCDs --- you guys need to raya with your own family so I don't wanna disturb the family bondings.

Sampat gang --- it's like we're seperated all of a sudden and you all have lots of new friends in college n church it felt like such a big gap between us, so I didn't call you guys I thought you guys wouldn't wanna come :( sorry if I misunderstood.

My review: Skullcandy Hesh

2010-09-05T23:15:00.000-07:00

My package came today at 11 in the morning... of course I was very thrilled hugging my box running around, can't wait to open it... I can't believe I got it in just 5 days (USA to Malaysia) is that excellent service or what :)

[pictures will be uploaded soon]

okeyyy now to the review of this product... overall I'll give it 4 stars rating
the bass of these headphones are really good, if you're a bass head or a clubber it's the thing for you as well. I've been using them for the past 1 - 2 hours and after my observation what I can say is that it's best with Techno, R&B or any upbeat songs... you can precisely hear each and every beat clearly... it good with acoustic,rock, metal, screamo songs but best with hip hop songs, for sentimental, pop, instrumental songs....etc are also not bad, at least satisfactory. When you turn the volume all the way up it feels like
1.) you're really in a club (R&B)
2.) the bands are performing in front of you(Rock)

and it doesn't make your ears feel pressured by the maximum volume. Good stuff

Good --- nice bass, comfortable ear pads (very soft leather), stylish designs, they don't make your ear drums hurt even if the volume is on 100%, it doesn't make the songs sound fake and a reasonable price.

Bad --- no sound canceling system, they leak pretty obvious when the volume is on 50% - 100%.

so that's it for the review, I'm back to have some quality time with my Hesh Sparkle Motion

eBay addiction

2010-09-02T12:17:00.000-07:00

My 1st experience purchasing on eBay

it's not easy at first but once you now the progress it's a piece of cake

-create eBay account
-create PayPal account
-credit card number plus other info
-PayPal: 10 dollars deposit, confirm card, address, verify account etc
-eBay: confirm item, confirm payment
-wait for e mails from both sites
-at last wait for the package(s) that kinda what I'm doing right now

yup it can give you a headache at 1st, but I'm committed to buy on eBay because it's safe

waiting TwT one package from US the other from Korea... I gotta stop logging into my eBay account. But come to think of it, it's actually not a bad thing because it's cheaper on eBay than buying it on the spot in Malaysia like Sunway Pyramid (certain items).
Okeyyyy you guys probably wondering what did I bought :) well it's really not my budget but I've wanting these for a long time and I'm glad I bought them and I won't regret it.

the 1st thing I bought was the Skullcandy Hesh Sparkle Motion.. RM 240+ I'm happy I purchase them because the same model that you can get in Malaysia is RM354+ in Quiksilver stores so why would I not buy them in eBay instead?
I'll post up pictures of it when I receive my mail, I actually wanted the Rock Nation Aviators in Black because someone who got these actually prefers these than Beats By Dre which is a lot more expensive but the Aviators are like RM500+ so I went with Hesh since there's a lot of reviewers recommending them also... maybe I'll get the Aviators or whatever latest designs that catches my eye (when I'm rich of course XD)

the 2nd thing I bought 5 minutes ago was a black Beanie from Korea lol I once spotted the perfect beanie in Pyramid but it's RM60... I don't know about you but 60 bucks for a hat is too much for me, obviously it was expensive because of the rent.. the one from Korea is RM54, mm not as cheap as I would hoped but it's better than 60 bucks right.

Malaysian Politics

2010-09-02T09:34:00.000-07:00

I got this in my msn inbox it was forwarded to me and ATTENTION to people who are closed minded or people who have to further interests in Malaysian Politics I advise you to skip. Thank You

TC Replies to the article "Orang Cina Malaysia, apa lagi yang anda mahu?"

“Chinese Malaysians Asking Far Too Much”

By Zaini Hassan
Source – Straits Times, published Apr 30, 2010

WHAT else do Chinese Malaysians want? Let us put aside the reasons why they do not support the current government in Kuala Lumpur. Let us study first what else they want.

For that, we have to go back to history. The Chinese came to Malaya to seek opportunities. They had lived a hard life in mainland China for hundreds of years. Like the whites who migrated to the American continent because it was the land of opportunity, the Chinese migrated to Malaya to make their fortunes in this bountiful land.

The strategy of their forebears has borne fruit. The Chinese have attained what they wanted. They now live in the lap of luxury in this land of opportunity called Malaysia.

In fact, it is not only in Malaysia that they have attained what they wanted. They have even gained full control of Singapore. Singapore is not their original country. The Singapore Chinese and the Malaysian Chinese were originally boat people. The difference is that those who landed in Singapore managed to gain full control of Singapore, but those who landed in Malaysia did not manage to control Malaysia.

In Malaysia, the Chinese live in peace with the Malays, the indigenous people and the Indians. In comparison, in Singapore, the Chinese control politics and the Government. In Malaysia, the Malays still control politics and the government. The systems of both governments are the same, but it is vice versa: The Malays dominate in Malaysia while the Chinese dominate across the Causeway.

In contrast, the Malays in Singapore and the Chinese in Malaysia are very different. The Malays in Singapore lead ordinary lives while the Chinese in Malaysia lead lives that are ‘more than ordinary’.

In fact, former Malaysian prime minister Mahathir Mohamad once stated that if all the Chinese-owned buildings in Kuala Lumpur were lifted from the map, only the buildings in Kampung Baru, a Malay area, would remain in the city.
All the other buildings are owned by Chinese Malaysians. The well-known shopping centres in Malaysia are owned by the Chinese.
The Chinese Malaysians are fantastic. They control all the cities and major towns in peninsular Malaysia, as well as Sabah and Sarawak. They produce the largest number of, and the most successful, professionals. The school system of the Chinese Malaysians is the best among similar school systems in the world.
The Chinese account for most of the students studying in the best private colleges in Malaysia. The Malays can gain admission into only government-owned colleges of ordinary reputation.
With regard to corporate and private organisations, it is the Chinese who dominate. The Malays number just a few; most of them are low-level employees. In fact, knowing Mandarin is a prerequisite for applying for jobs in these organisations.
Finally, an annual survey by the Malaysian Business magazine has found that eight of the 10 richest people in Malaysia are Chinese. The following is the list of the 10 richest people in Malaysia:

Mr Robert Kuok Hock Nien
Mr Tatparanandam Ananda Krishnan
Tan Sri Lee Shin Cheng
Tan Sri The Hong Piow
Tan Sri Lim Kok Thay

Tan Sri Quek Leng Chan
Tan Sri Syed Mokhtar Al-Bukhary
Puan Sri Lee Kim Hua
Tan Sri Tiong Hiew King
Tan Sri Vincent Tan Chee Yioun

This is the reality in Malaysia, my beloved country. Is the current government, which has been in power for 52 years, cruel and totalitarian? What else do the Chinese Malaysians want? I think I know, and I think you know too.

Date: Sunday, 2 May, 2010, 10:16 PM

Here is Thuan Chye’s response to Utusan Malaysia’s article

Source: www.freemalaysiatoday.com

Thuan Chye Responds to “Orang Cina Malaysia, apa lagi yang anda mahu?”(Utusan Malaysia article)

By Kee Thuan Chye

Every time the Barisan Nasional gets less than the expected support from Chinese voters at an election, the question invariably pops up among the petty-minded: Why are the Chinese ungrateful?

So now, after the Hulu Selangor by-election, it’s not surprising to read in Utusan Malaysia a piece that asks: “Orang Cina Malaysia, apa lagi yang anda mahu?” (trans. Chinese of Malaysia, what more do you want?)
Normally, something intentionally provocative and propagandistic as this doesn’t deserve to be honoured with a reply. But even though I’m fed up with such disruptive and ethnocentric polemics, this time I feel obliged to reply – partly because the article has also been published, in an English translation, in the Straits Times of Singapore.
I wish to emphasise here that I am replying not as a Chinese Malaysian but, simply, as a Malaysian. Let me say at the outset that the Chinese have got nothing more than what any citizen should get. So to ask “what more” it is they want, is misguided. A correct question would be, “What do the Chinese want?”

All our lives, we Chinese have held to the belief that no one owes us a living. We have to work for it. Most of us have got where we are by the sweat of our brow, not by handouts or the policies of the government.
We have come to expect nothing – not awards, not accolades, not gifts from official sources. (Let’s not lump in Datukships, that’s a different ball game.) We know that no Chinese who writes in the Chinese language will ever be bestowed the title of Sasterawan Negara, unlike in Singapore where the literatures of all the main language streams are recognised and honoured with the Cultural Medallion, etc.

We have learned we can’t expect the government to grant us scholarships. Some will get those, but countless others won’t. We’ve learned to live with that and to work extra hard in order to support our children to attain higher education – because education is very important to us. We experience a lot of daily pressure to achieve that. Unfortunately, not many non-Chinese realise or understand that. In fact, many Chinese had no choice but to emigrate for the sake of their children’s further education. Or to accept scholarships from abroad, many from Singapore, which has inevitably led to a brain drain.

The writer of the Utusan article says the Chinese “account for most of the students” enrolled in “the best private colleges in Malaysia”. Even so, the Chinese still have to pay a lot of money to have their children study in these colleges. And to earn that money, the parents have to work very hard. The money does not fall from the sky.
The writer goes on to add: “The Malays can gain admission into only government-owned colleges of ordinary reputation.” That is utter nonsense. Some of these colleges are meant for the cream of the Malay crop of students and are endowed with the best facilities. They are given elite treatment.
The writer also fails to acknowledge that the Chinese are barred from being admitted to some of these colleges. As a result, the Chinese are forced to pay more money to go to private colleges. Furthermore, the Malays are also welcome to enrol in the private colleges, and many of them do. It’s, after all, a free enterprise.

Plain and simple reason
The writer claims that the Chinese live “in the lap of luxury” and lead lives that are “more than ordinary” whereas the Malays in Singapore, their minority-race counterparts there, lead “ordinary lives”. Such sweeping statements sound inane especially when they are not backed up by definitions of “lap of luxury” and “ordinary lives”. They sound hysterical, if not hilarious as well, when they are not backed up by evidence. It’s surprising that a national daily like Utusan Malaysia would publish something as idiosyncratic as that. And the Straits Times too.
The writer quotes from a survey that said eight of the 10 richest people in Malaysia are Chinese. Well, if these people are where they are, it must have also come from hard work and prudent business sense. Is that something to be faulted?

If the writer had said that some of them achieved greater wealth through being given crony privileges and lucrative contracts by the government, there might be a point, but even then, it would still take hard work and business acumen to secure success. Certainly, Syed Mokhtar Al-Bukhary, who is one of the 10, would take exception if it were said that he has not worked hard and lacks business savvy.
Most important, it should be noted that the eight Chinese tycoons mentioned in the survey represent but a minuscule percentage of the wider Chinese MalaysianThe writer has obviously not met the vast numbers of very poor Chinese. population. To extrapolate that because eight Chinese are filthy rich, the rest of the Chinese must therefore live in the lap of luxury and lead more than ordinary lives would be a mockery of the truth.

The crux of the writer’s article is that the Chinese are not grateful to the government by not voting for Barisan Nasional at the Hulu Selangor by-election. But this demonstrates the thinking of either a simple mind or a closed one.
Why did the Chinese by and large not vote for BN? Because it’s corrupt. Plain and simple. Let’s call a spade a spade. And BN showed how corrupt it was during the campaign by throwing bribes to the electorate, including baiting a Chinese school in Rasa by promising RM3 million should it win the by-election.
The Chinese were not alone in seeing this corruption. The figures are unofficial but one could assume that at least 40 per cent of Malays and 45 per cent of Indians who voted against BN in that by-election also had their eyes open. So, what’s wrong with not supporting a government that is corrupt? If the government is corrupt, do we continue to support it?
To answer the question then, what do the Chinese want?
They want a government…

a. that is not corrupt;

b. that can govern well and proves to have done so;

c. that tells the truth rather than lies;

d. that follows the rule of law;

e. that upholds rather than abuses the country’s sacred institutions.

Because BN does not fit that description, the Chinese have learned not to vote for it. This is not what only the Chinese want. It is something every sensible Malaysian, regardless of race, wants. Is that something that is too difficult to understand?
Some people think that the government is to be equated with the country, and therefore if someone does not support the government, they are being disloyal to the country. This is a complete fallacy. BN is not Malaysia. It is merely a political coalition that is the government of the day. Rejecting BN is not rejecting the country.

A sense of belonging
Let’s be clear about this important distinction. In America, the people sometimes vote for the Democrats and sometimes for the Republicans. Voting against the one that is in government at the time is not considered disloyalty to the country.
By the same token, voting against UMNO is also voting against a party, not against a race. And if the Chinese or whoever criticise UMNO, they are criticising the party; they are not criticising Malays. It just happens that UMNO’s leaders are Malay.
It is time all Malaysians realised this so that we can once and for all dispel the confusion. Let us no longer confuse country with government. We can love our country and at the same time hate the government. It is perfectly all right.

I should add here what the Chinese don’t want:

a. We don’t want to be insulted,

b. We don’t want to be called pendatang

c. We don’t want to be told to be grateful for our citizenship.

We have been loyal citizens; we duly and dutifully pay taxes; we respect the country’s constitution and its institutions. Our forefathers came to this country many generations ago and helped it to prosper. We are continuing to contribute to the country’s growth and development.

Would anyone like to be disparaged, made to feel unwelcome or unwanted? For the benefit of the writer of the Utusan article, what MCA president Chua Soi Lek means when he says the MCA needs to be more vocal is that it needs to speak up whenever the Chinese community is disparaged. For too long, the MCA has not spoken up strongly enough when UMNO politicians and associates like Ahmad Ismail, Nasir Safar, Ahmad Noh and others before them insulted the Chinese and made them feel like they don’t belong. That’s why the Chinese have largely rejected the MCA.
You see, the Chinese, like all human beings, want self-respect. And a sense of belonging in this country they call home. That is all the Chinese want, and have always wanted. Nothing more.

Dramatist and journalist Kee Thuan Chye is the author of ‘March 8: The Day Malaysia Woke Up’. He is a contributor to Free Malaysia Today.

"To sin by silence when we should protest makes cowards of people” - Emily Cox
"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them" - Walt Disney

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My feedback

[My attempt wasn't to insult anyone or any race just a message for those who NEED to grow up ]

I'm just a 18 year old ordinary Chinese Malaysian, born here and lived here... and Issues like these have been going on forever and also getting worse. btw I have to point out that Kee Thuan Chye is officially my role model. Several cases happened the past few weeks such as The two Chinese guys who got beaten up by a group of Malay Teenagers on Merdeka Eve, Siti Inshah the principal of Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Tunku Abdul Rahman Putra a racist who took it too far and this is now a big issue, A Chinese from DAP Mp was bombared for not being properly attired when she was visiting a surau to provide financial aid, Namewee almost got arrested by the police [the work of Siti Inshah] Etc.... I wasn't trying to point out that Malays are generally ill mannered or uncivilized because I have lots of Malay friends that are much more open minded much more respectful and much more understanding so I believe a lot of you aren't like these people that aren't ashamed of what they did. To Zaini Hassan: Why must the Malays have special privileges? because you're all Indigenous? No, it's because people like you are just childish and lazy to really work hard for something if you really think the roots of Malaysia needs to have special treatment then aren't you guys forgetting about the real indigenous that were here before the Malays ? No matter what mindset you have this is the fact Chinese and Indians are a part of Malaysia if it wasn't the fact our Prime Minister wouldn't have come up with the idea of 1 Malaysia wouldn't he? If it was so easy to 'Balik China' or 'Balik India' do you think we will still stay here for so many years arguing about Racism? The endless discussion.. sigh when you think adults are bound to be more mature some of them just couldn't STFU it's like their brain is stuck at that consatnt moment and they could only repeat the same topic over and over, just like when my computer's lagging ;)

May Malaysia wake up, make up, stand up and grow up. You all should be worrying about things that are more important

School's Education --- Needs a lot of Improvement: we can do better, because Singapore is a very good example to Malaysia.

Driving School --- I'm still undergoing the program to get my P licence, but I'm really unhappy with the driving standard in Malaysia... our licence are being banned in a lot of countries well I think you all know why... Do something about it please? If we just continue to be ignorant more people will suffer from car accidents and what not.

Malaysian Police --- since the recent news about the Bus tour tragedy in the Philippines we can conclude that the worst Polices in the world is not Malaysia but that doesn't mean were the best or even average as well.

Cleanliness --- We're not the dirtiest country but I can confirm anyone who walk in any street in Malaysia you'll see someone littering like nobody's business. Yes?

hopefully someday there's a change in this place.

When it used to be sexy...

2010-09-02T08:00:00.000-07:00

It was better of left as a myth

It was better of left undiscovered

It's a real turn off after being copied by posers

Hello people, Today's topic is about the "well known" Vampires

I used to think their dangerous and sexy at the same time, but ever since I watch the "Greatest movie ever" Twilight. It really killed it for me... well like they say [If the mystery is gone... then so is the magic :( ] I'll never ever like them or look at them the way I did before TwT

ever since Twilight got on screens and became a big hit..... other shows like True Blood, Vampire Diaries etc don't seem to interest me, because I can't take these commercialized junk (sorry to say but yeah). I would rather vampires not exist because those who claims that they are one, are such wannabes. I was bored at work and I did some searches in Youtube and I watched several of other videos also I watched one of the episodes of The Tyra Banks Show that was a Halloween Special, the topic was "Real Vampires" they invited 4 "Real" Vampires and one of them were known as the King of Vampires, name: Don Henrie, so okay he was the first that Tyra interviewed he does indeed look like a typical vampire that everyone knows. He's got fangs... a long black leather jacket.. long hair (even longer than mine) and also the very pale complexion etc. I doubt that anyone would believe them because the sharp fangs are done by the dentist so it wasn't born that way wtf. He does not just finds any prey and fests from their neck.. because they have blood donors and they just drink once a week or a month lol, I don't really get that concept but basically the fangs are just for fun? the second one is a girl age rage around 25 - 30 I guess and this girl is just weird to me shes more to a weirdo than a vampire, saying lots of crap btw number 1 and 2 hates having sex they think it's disgusting =.= what does that have to do with a Vampire? and the other 2 was worse 3rd one was the age of 40 - 50 and she is a PART TIME VAMPIRE lol how stupid is that which means during working hours shes a normal American citizen after that shes back to being a vampire okay so shes also a weird one and the 4th one is a guy age around 18 - 23 erm... no comment about him I think amongst all of them he is the least that has the vibe of a blood sucking monster he dresses up like a punk or a goth wannabe and he left his family because the family couldn't accept him for being like this Puhhh Bullshit.

remember Mystery = Sexy & Popularity = Annoying :)

I hate it when Hollywood destroys something that WAS great, examples like The Last Airbender okay to people who did not watch the animated series you can't decide whether the movie is good or bad because you have not watch the cartoon which has all the details, the action and drama I have not watch the movie because I have a feeling it would disappoint me and a few people that did watch the cartoon before said it wasn't good so I don't feel like wasting my money on that. Even though the director Mr. M Night Shamalan is also the director of the animated series but I really don't know why can it turn out bad and Zuko became an Indian T__T wtf he's like the hot and aggressive one and know he turns to Slumdog millionaire Noooooooo.

okay you guys that's all for now nights...
[Still desperately waiting for my Skullcandy Hesh ^v^]

No regrets.. NO REGRETS!!! Hey Ho Let's GO

2010-08-19T00:23:00.000-07:00

I'm having fever, it's been 4 days I suppose.. still suffering the pain but not as bad as the past few days... sigh "ALL THANKS" to this fever I can't go for my last two days of driving lessons. Next Tuesday is dooms day for me [Driving Test] TwT.. (sings: can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars I could really use a wish right now....) Oh god damn it my nose is killing me, erm what else hm... ow don't forget this Saturday 21 August 2010 9pm MTV world stage live in Malaysia its on Mtv Channel remember to watch it if you're a fan of Tokio Hotel, Katy Perry, Wonder Girls and BUNKFACE ! Also speaking of Tokio Hotel... damn, the girl who is working with me is really getting on my nerves. Why? Because.. few months ago which is around May or June I introduced her some songs like Leona Lewis, Celine Dion....... TOKIO HOTEL goshhhhh I really really didn't expect her to be so extremely Obsessed with them. Now I can confirm that I am just a very VERY normal fan :) she is so obsessed it's like Tokio Hotel revolves all around her wherever whenever. Honestly, It's getting kinda annoying like every time I enter the shop first thing I hear is "World behind my wall" or "Automatic" or "Zoom into me"... it was okay at first but now................. I can't take it anymore I can't believe I'm saying this but I feel like deleting all of Tokio Hotel's songs in this computer since I'm the one who put it in anyways. Whatever she does involves them like going to Youtube searching for Tokio Hotel's video, when she's doing work she starts singing their songs whatever topic I'm talking about she just pulls Tokio Hotel into the conversation almost all the time jeez... and also shes obsessed with them for around for only 3 months and she's already dreamed about Tokio Hotel 3 days in a role, LOL like wow, when I was obsessed with DBSK (for 3 years) I think I had less than 2 dreams about them. Please man I really hope she gets a whole of herself because she really needs to stop this madness. Although to me their pretty much a great band and Bill is different in many ways that is somehow attractive to me? but... too much is too much. So for this post I wish that I CAN PASS MY DRIVING TEST, Nuji can get a whole of herself, my fever will go away and never return and I hope that expensive tuition is really worth the price. And to the rest of the world STAY STRONG!

So blind til it became stupidity

2010-08-10T09:50:00.000-07:00

This is so fucked up I don't like to read, discover, remember, calculate or stand out and when there comes a time where I wonder what they were it was already hard for me to install all those things into my head. Ignoring the right direction, stepping in deeper to the my minor mistakes and creating a huge problem. lol what the hell, I really have no clue what's up with me.. is it really laziness? ignorance ? or was it just my attention span.. right now I wish I have a Sergeant beside me 24/7 to keep me occupied because I'm so fucking easily distracted by something or even nothing. What's wrong with meeee, Wro o ong with meeee ! I must have a problem!

I wonder how long can I stand being tangled up at this constant situation.

TCD reunion

2010-08-06T05:14:00.000-07:00

Had a fun day today... it's my off day and im so glad i didn't just sit at home and do nothing. In the morning i had my driving lessons again.. its my third time driving and PLEASE to any who hasn't start their driving course Do not sign up for Mr Yap.... btw I don't hate Mr Yap or anything but he's just not a good teacher Honestly saying (hot tempered and very very very impatient) unless you already know how to drive then it's okey. Phew okey my morning didn't go so well ha ha haaa i don't know what's wrong with me my 1st day and 2nd day of driving was ok but today was suckish XP any who my day got better after that because i finally bought my new snickers and black umbrella :) hehehe i finally found a black umbrella and I bought Yupi gummies such as Gummi Bears, Gummi Worms, Gummi Apple Rings, Gummi Cola Party etc haha I bought so many of em because i love that Yupi commercial where they combine all of the candies together and the candies were having a parade lol i saw that when i was.... erm 7? 8? ahh can't remember but it was the best candy commercial that I can remember. And then, during 3.30pm Mas, Yen Leng and Kisu picked me up for ...... The Photoshoot :) too bad Jmie and Esther didn't come :( but the photoshoot was a success and was a blast, Kisu was pretty as usual but today she kinda reminds everyone of the Wonder Girls [nobody nobody but you!], Mas had the most stunning pictures! Sexy lady, I get to put make up on Nina for the first time she had make up on haha she looks great with make up, and also Teahuh so so long didn't see this crazy woman TwT awesome awesome photoshoot, credits to Masie for the idea . I shall go back to Fb to finish tagging them pictures~ hohohoo

World Stage to Worst Day

2010-07-31T10:38:00.000-07:00

Mtv World Stage live in Malaysia 31 July 2010 made top 1.. in my worst day list when it was suppose to be the best day of the year. How bad can it be? well lemme highlight them for you so you know why is it so terrible. g

I was almost late to redeem my 4 passes and then Me, Mei Ki and Chi Kei went to get some lunch, and we walk around Pyramid for a while we thought 5 pm is alright cause last year we went in 6pm the queue wasn't big but surprisingly the queue was ridiculously HUGE, and it wasn't even 6pm I went to find Kisu and I was really happy to see her Muacks!... anyways everyone was losing patience waiting and as I look up, I realize the sky was covered with black clouds and rained HEAVILY everyone was under the rain more than one hour WTF , my make up smeared and I looked like a crazy woman, my hair was ruin [i did a faux hawk] The most heart breaking thing was my BUNK FACE / TOKIO HOTEL banner WAS DAMAGED BADLY!!!! TwT Ahh! I had no choice cause the colours were coming off and it stained Kisu and Chi kei's pants so I threw my banner away cause it was totally ruin, all of us are completely soaked and wet really uncomfortable The amount of water was adding a lot of weight into my clothes so hard to walk and my legs are really painful because the wind kept blowing after we finally got into the Lagoon we all went to the toilet to clean up and I saw the camera was being turn on and when I took it out OH MY GOSH my sister's camera spoiled because of the rain [no idea how to tell her]
plus my precious hand phone was dead because of the rain as well my mood was seriously so bad I really wanna kill everyone, people kept telling me to chill etc but none of it could get into my head... I tried to calm myself down and say "it will all pay off when they start performing." Bunk Face did a really good job :) I'm very proud indeed at least they make me enjoy for a moment there and then we waited around 20 - 30 minutes for Wonder Girls..erm they're pretty and good at dancing but their songs are not really my type after their performance Tokio Hotel is up next I was excited and sad at the same time so my face was literally emotionless and we waited quite long and suddenly Kisu felt ill like she was going to faint I was so panicked I didn't think about anything else and just brought her out of the crowd and we took a long time to walk back into Pyramid to get some hot soup... most importantly I MISSED Tokio Hotel & Katy Perry WTF F F and the service in Gasoline was terrible, and I'm already so fucking pissed, my legs were killing me because of the sand and water that was in my shoes, me and Kisu walk to many areas in Pyramid looking for the stupid public phone and it eat my money. But at least I have Chi Kei to fetch me home TwT thank you so much ah Kei !!!! I'm so depress that I couldn't even cry.

If I can search for the Rain God I would really give him her a big punch in the face. Why can't you rain at Africa or something jeez

and now here I am, blogging about this awful day and my shoulder is now aching like hell

It paid off !

2010-07-26T10:53:00.000-07:00

Oh
My
Gooooooooshhhh!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I just checked my facebook and I saw my submitted picture on Bunkface's album which means.. I'm one of the top 10 winners in the Bunkface Banner contest IM SOOOO FREAKING HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!! No more sighings I just wana scream and hoop around non stop !!!! Thank you Thank you so so much!!!!!!! muacks muacks gosh I can't stop saying gosh loving this moment right now Loving it !

-to be continued-

=)

hello! to continue this post I shall inform you guys about what to do and what not to do, if this is your 1st time then it's better if you read this.
Okay, since I've been to World Stage last year here's a few things you need to know

1.) DO NOT buy any food or drinks before entering the Lagoon, they won't let you in because there will be food stalls INSIDE the Lagoon.... Last year the guards forbid me and my friends to go in and they said "either you finish it here or you leave it outside" [they check your bag before you enter] WTF? so don't waste your money, eat before you go in.

2.) If your planing on getting there early around 4 - 6 in the afternoon, DO put on sun block or wear a cap cause this is Malaysia we're talking about, wushhhhh!

3.) for an example: Bunkface is the 1st one to perform and after they finish their performances MTV would probably give us a break for about 10 - 20 minutes at this time some of them would just sit at where they stand so they don't have to squeeze back in later and some would buy food and water and later on they end up standing way behind. DO this... if it's 4 friends... 2 sit and save their spot and the other 2 can go buy the food and be fast! because the queue is seriously crazy.

4.)DO bring a handkerchief if you sweat a lot then bring a towel lol, you're gonna be squeezing with a really big crowd so you are bound to sweat and get all sticky and so as the people next to you.

Lastly the most common problems ever
- Pick pocket... place you valuables in a safe place and check every 5 minutes
- For the girls~ certain idiots love to take advantage on this kind of event... they whack your ass, purposely banging your boobs etc etc.... I can only advise you to kick their dick XD [if you have your boyfriend with you then it's okay]
- People smoking in the crowd... Urgh! it's annoying because it's already hard for you to breathe in a huge crowd and now they're smoking what the hell, mmm if you have a big group of friends then you could ask them to get the hell out here.. if you're alone then just bear with it hahaha.

Okay that's pretty much it so hope it helped and see you guys there bye!

Crazy or Stylish ?

2010-07-23T00:13:00.000-07:00

Play Doh perfume? very weird.

sheep placenta for less aging skin? lol I really didn't know that.

from mood rings to mood polish??? this one caught my attention, I would love to try

beacon balm??? errr since I'm a vegetarian I don't think I should like it hahaha

the most bazaar one is the stick on eyeshadow. I don't do animal prints but this is kinda special

heres some stuff I read and copy/paste from msn.com that I find very useful to the ladies, awesome stuff. weird but it works hah.

Soften Your Bod with AvocadoTake a ripe avocado, remove the pit and skin, and mash it up in a bowl. Slather it all over your body, let it sit for 20 minutes, then rinse off. Your skin will be sooo soft — avocado is a natural moisturizer.

Super-Glue a NailInstead of tearing off your nail when it breaks, put a tiny dab of Super Glue over the split, and paint a generous layer of your favorite nail polish shade over it. Go for an opaque option (like red, purple, or coral) to camouflage and seal the crack.

Buff with Baking SodaIf you find yourself streaking (not glowing) after applying self-tanner, put some baking soda on a loofah, and scrub away the stripes.

Brush on Hair SprayFor the final step of your blow-dry, spray hair spray onto your brush, and run it through strands from roots to tips. This way, your 'do isn't plastered and stiff but still holds volume and shine.

Boost Body Lotion with Baby OilIf you're craving shiny legs that aren't greasy, blend a drop of baby oil into your normal body lotion for extra luster.

Dab Essential Oil on a HangnailPut on apricot oil, the kind found in health-food stores, to protect cuticles from turning rough and raggedy.

Quell a Cold Sore with CreamWhen a cold sore is coming on, dab a bit of thick moisturizer, like Aquaphor, over it to prevent it from getting worse.

Freeze Your EyelinerIf the tip of your eyeliner pencil crumbles and smears on your lids, store the liner in the freezer for 15 minutes before use so the tip is firm and goes across your skin smoothly.

Use Toothpaste on a ZitUse just a pea-size amount. Let sit for 15 minutes to absorb the oil so the pimple won't get more clogged, then wash off.

Heat Up Your CurlerIf you have stick-straight lashes, try blasting your metal eyelash curler with a hair dryer for a couple of seconds to heat it up so your lashes bend more easily. And use a waterproof mascara. The formula dries faster than other mascaras, so it sets the curl more effectively.

Tips for girls to grow long hair the fast way

2010-07-22T22:50:00.000-07:00

Hey ho! I used to complain about my hair, it's current the same length with my bra strap and since then it's not been growing much and a lot of people ask me the same question "did you cut your hair? it seems shorter" What the heck, Shorter ??? lol I have no idea what's wrong with their sight but that kind of question is really getting on my nerves. So 2 months ago I asked Nuji how does she keep her hair so long? considering that her hair reaches her thighs so I figure she would be the perfect person to ask... and indeed she has a solution for me. This is so easy and simple you don't need to spend any money on hair products or any treatments the secret to this is before going to bed, grab a comb separate your hair into two partings and then comb 50 times on each side and make sure to be gentle. Do this every night before you go to bed and you can see results, believe me I've tried =) and also besides getting your hair to grow faster it helped me with my sleeping problem as well, no matter what time I go to bed I always end up looking at the ceiling for hours and I just get to sleep for 3-4 hours which is really unhealthy . By doing this you are actually sort of giving yourselves a massage and I found 3 benefits
1.) you get longer hair faster than usual
2.) you WILL sleep a lot better if you have my problem
3.) you also exercise your arms .
So remember to try it if you need longer hair / beauty sleep.
see you next time.

I gave my all

2010-07-18T21:41:00.000-07:00

still..
I'm desparately finding a way to get World Stage passes..
and so far I tried at Junk, Xpax, Mtv, One fm, Fly fm...
the one that I gave in the most effort is the Bunkface contest if I win this I can get 4 passes =) please let me win, please let me win !! *Obsessed* I have to draw a Banner that is full with creativity so heres how it looks like (I prefer it black and white... sigh I kind of destroyed it when I coloured it but manage to cover up a bit) I didn't sleep properly for 3 days because of this banner :( so sooo~ sleepy... zzz but I have to work.

just finished lining with my markers and artline pens

starting off with water colour

half way there...

80% complete

the final result !

this will be the picture that I'm gonna submit

at least let me get 2 tix minimum the least ? Please!!!!! I tried everything that I can to win em TwT it would be soooooo freakin unfair if I don't any passes and all my energy and money will be so wasted! - til next time -

Choose

2010-07-15T20:19:00.000-07:00

Communications.....
Arts......
or Buildings.......?
need the key to try out these 3 doors
see something like nothing before
and see which will it open up for me
give me a full image to know what it means
To know that I won't regret anything
to know I'm not wasting.
prison gates won't open up for me
with these broken wings I'm falling
but with this hope I'm surviving
by the last chance I'm still breathing
with my only voice I'm calling
terrified by these four walls
let me be sure to say
I see you, come please I'm calling
I'd die for you, come please I'm falling
show me what it's like to be the last one standing
I'll show you what I can be
say it to me say it for me
and I'll leave this life behind me
say it if it's worth... in me
I know it's not over
cause I'll never be the loser
someday somehow
I'm gonna make it alright
someday I will
complete my story's ending
and you...
you're the only one who knows that.

Doggies + MTV World Stage M'sia 2010

2010-07-14T09:43:00.000-07:00

hey I'm back! I'm actually very busy right now but I felt so excited that the World Stage concert is back again for 2010 live in Malaysia Ahhhhhh! *screams with an irritating high pitch voice* but unfortunately it's in 2 weeks time and where the hell am I gonna get Tickets ? lol I'll figure that out tomorrow at work hah. Okay I also wanted to post about what kind of dogs I wanna have when I have my own house 1. Doberman - smart, intelligent, handsome and Awesome!!! 2. Alaskan Malamute - active, a good companion and still cute 3. something smaller maybe a toy poodle or a Pomeranian or.... a Maltese ow ow and then I'll get a pair of Sugar Gliders and soon I have little joeys aw... how cute is that haha lol don't mind me, I just want them so bad. Anyways back to the World Stage issue hm mm wonder how can I get them I won't mind buying the ticket but it'll be awkward to go alone considering that I doubt anyone would join me buying the tickets when they can get free tickets which always has the WORST VIEW of all times last time I went there AAR and Hoobastank looked like ants but good performances =) well things can't always go the way you want it to so... the bad news is that the day for THE event is not really a flexible period for me and let's not forget that ridiculous 100 bucks per class home tuition teacher =.= Are you trying to eat me alive??? No matter what I will do whatever it takes to get those darn tickets even if I need to chew my own arms off! Yeahhh!!!! This is Sparta!!!!! *kicks messenger into a huge deep hole*

Artists that are performing for MTV WS 2010 M'sia are
♫ Bunkface ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♫ Wonder Girls ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♫ Katy Perry ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
♫ Tokio Hotel ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

honestly these 4 different types of artists are surely talented no doubt about it. I have one question though How come there's so little people performing ? Last year we have Boys like Girls, Kasabian, Ray Guns, Hoobastank, All American Rejects, Pixie Lott etc around 6 to 7 and this year is just 4 hmm weird.

MTV World Stage live in Malaysia HERE I COME! be sure to meet me there! I'll remember to bring my sister's camera this time.

Please please let me get those tickets!!!!

excuse me? I'm not a puppet.

2010-07-08T20:53:00.000-07:00

Never saw it coming, I should have started running a long long time ago....
never thought I'd doubt you I'm better off without you more than you more than you know!

shortest post.. but it means more than a thousand words.

L A M E

2010-06-24T09:08:00.000-07:00

Heys it's now 12.21am well the usual ignoring my bedtime for my blog and Perry is sleeping right beside me [aww smelly fellow] anyways this time I'll be talking bout something that includes the word Lame. I blogged about lame stuff but The one thing I feel lamer than the word Lame is a Lame person [makes sense to you? no...], it can be found in any stereotype. Something I realized today when I was at work while there was nothing to do and at 1st I was thinking how the hell should I deal with all the uncompleted things in my life, things that must be done was delayed because of my laziness... and leaves my desires no where near me. I can't explain this in theory but I really wanna get that feeling out of me this instants sigh I'm sick of sighing... I didn't wanted to be the "emo girl" I didn't even want that as my title but any who that's not the point... what I really want to say is that I have been living for 18 years and 124 days and 47 minutes of this lame / stupid life. Wonder why it took me so long to look back and realize all of my footsteps were so incomplete, last month I fell in love with this motto from a HK series called "Rosy Business " I'm sure most of the Chinese knows about it, the motto was from this slave that was extraordinary who end up being the most respected guy in town and he died without any regrets, in every single tough situation he'll say " 人生有多少个十年？最重要的是活得痛快! " this motto really speaks to me. translation " live a life with one's greatest satisfaction, because you don't get many ten years in one lifetime " I don't know where everyone is going to end up in the afterlife... heaven, hell or whatever but I wouldn't wanna die and have my last thoughts thinking that I lived a life doing absolutely nothing that I can be proud of. I may not be book smart... I may not be good in math... I may not be a fast learner.. I may not be slim [lol]... I may not have anything I desperately want.. but doesn't mean I can't get there right? "It doesn't matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop" by Confucius, I never thought of getting revenge on anyone who doubts me... I never want to rub it into anyone's face when I succeeded, I just want to look in the mirror one day and say "I finally made it here". oh it's now 1.23 am and lastly I say thank you to Aaron Au my awesome cousin at US for constantly emailing me stuff about Architecture, although I still couldn't imagine what it's like to actually work as an Architect still all the information were priceless Thanks lots I wish the best of luck for your career and family =) Gracias . my Next Stop - - - Terminating all my "Lazigerms"

16 June

2010-06-16T03:20:00.000-07:00

16 June 2010

hmp, it seems like I've been logging into my blog almost everyday mmm oh well, today is my off day so as usual swimming without goggles again = =" and after that me and Chi Kei had over to Sunway Pyramid again = =" oh but this time Chi Kei's driving :D don't need to take the bus ha ha haaa. Another mission at Pyramid is that Mei Ki, Selva and all are planning this outing because Evon is going to NS in 3 days [if I'm not mistaken] errrr I got selected too but I did not receive any letter or response from them. Even if they did send I don't think I can go either... I hope I won't receive anything at the last minute O___O" it would give me a hard time to settle all my errands. Anyways we were suppose to watch a movie today until we realize Toy Story 3 is showing tomorrow *faints* in the end they decided to just go for karaoke instead and also good luck to Evon ! have fun at Perak hope I can see you with triceps and sick packs XD lol joking she looks fine right now. erm also sorry to Mei Ki and the rest that both of us didn't stay for the karaoke session Chi Kei needs to get back to do chores and it wouldn't be the thing to do if I join you all and letting her go home herself after she pick me up for swimming and offered to fetch me home [Thank You] mmm I actually got the mood for singing but maybe next time alright. Lastly thank you June for being so nice :) I'm now hunting for a I ♥ MAC ! T-shirt. Oh speaking of T-shirts I bought two new T-shirts when my sister and Mr. Saw brought me to the biggest night market in Malaysia.

and this one!! JENG JENG JENG~ like mama said, I can't buy the car so I bought a T-shirt WITH the car lol.

I think we didn't even finish seeing half of the place.. you can pretty much find anything there but the amount of people there is massive. Lots of good food at the cheapest price you can get and really cute puppies !! TwT I am so angry man they look so so sad in the cages..... AHHHHH !!!!! but besides that all's good =)

hey privacy please !! :P haha this is the second shirt I bought with a chibi emo kid print.

so that's a bout all bye!

The new Baskin 31 Robbins

2010-06-14T09:12:00.000-07:00

Welcome to Baskin Robbins!

really miss that place.... I finally went in the shop once again... I think it's been more than 7 months since I quit the job. When I went in that day I really can't recognize the place at all it looks fantastic and brand new the 1st time I'm playing the stranger... I didn't know anyone and the gloomy ice-cream shop is now filled with orange colour and there was no music playing, it's seriously so different as if I'm dreaming. I wasn't able to describe my emotions all I can say is, it just felt so weird... something like all my memories with everyone I met there was being pushed aside. Also.. I couldn't just stand there and figure out my mixed up emotion so I bought a Junior scoop in a cup sigh rindu giller !!!! I didn't want to get even more emotional so I bought it for Nuji instead, since she hasn't tried Ice-cream mahal before hahaha. How great would it be if everyone from the same batch make a reunion at the exact shop eating ice-cream and taking pictures for precious and silly memories, I miss you all so so much

please don't discard me from your memories...

even though it isn't the fanciest thing you've ever seen...

Isolation I care not

2010-06-13T06:35:00.000-07:00

Topic includes similar things like {feeling unimportant, left out, bullied, hated, feeling invisible etc}

I have problems like these myself I'm sure a lot of you do past, present or future. I think of it as a good thing more than something to be upset about really... Why? because it's the fastest and clearest way to show you who is meant to be respected by you and in return. I don't know about the whole world but from the people that I know I can say 80% and above is having this thought "I must be such a terrible person, no wonder no one sees me as someone important." Well if you did threat them the best you can as a friend, sister, brother, mom, dad yadda yadda. You must get that thought out of your head immediately and try putting this one as a replacement "My conscience are clear and it's not worth for me to shed a tear". When people ignore you like a stranger, ignore them like a piece of paper, rememeber don't ever waste your blood and tears for people like that because I believe real friends and people who love you won't threat you that way. Head Strong!!!!

Ring that cuts + Baby opinions from Xuan

2010-06-12T23:12:00.000-07:00

I have been looking for rings that helps when you punch someone, BUT the shitty thing is whenever I want/need something.... I can't afford it, well okay I don't really need em but I just like it for some reason... and after searching all sorts of rings on the web and I found this Ring-O-Blog website which has all types of rings and I find some quite interesting. Which on the other hand made me even more depress BUUUT I ain't gonna be sad for today cause I when for my driving test and I pass =D 45/50 Yeah! at first I thought I could buy that pair of black heels I wanted with the 5 puluh riggit I got ready just in case I fail the test but.... after coming back home happily me and my sister discuss about family + financial issues again, after that talk I end up not having the chance to buy Again. This comes to show that when you can't secure your own financial, attitude, education, career etc DON'T GET MARRIED and NEVER EVER HAVE KIDS... I don't care how much you think babies are cute because they won't be cute anymore when they live in a life they never wanted, and please don't say "Oh, I'll find a way, there's always a way" it's bullshit you can't have a tree before starting off with a seed. Trust me I don't care whatever situation you're in just don't go there if you can't support em, everyone will struggle for your one naive mistake.Oh ya... one last thing, certain people have the thought that when you have a baby means it's god's gift =.= okay no matter what religion you are.... I gotta say that is not a fact and it definitely makes no sense, if it is god's gift then explain to me
Why is there such places called Orphanage?
Why are kids making suicidal a trend?
Why is so many kids having stepmother/father instead?
Why are houses flooded with debts having more than 4 to 5 children?
Why do teenagers borrow money from others for abortion ?
Why are under aged people getting pregnant ?
Those people definitely don't deserve to be parents so it's not god's gift alright? For me as for some people might know this already but I'll post it anyways... okay I never wanna get married [unless I meet a really Awesome guy that Never gets bored with me even when I'm 80 which I doubt any guy in this world is ] I don't want kids, but not that I don't love kids just like what I said if you can't manage to give them THE best then don't bring them into this world.... cause that's really selfish. It's not just about providing them food & a house to live in, a lot of parents think it's more than want kids can ask for but it's not.... yes buying candies and toys aren't necessary but buying one or two won't kill you either. and I hate it when parents LOVE to compare every single piece of shit like "your life is better than people in Africa" or "Why can your friends score higher marks than you" etc If I have the permission I would really love to slap each and every parent who say stuff like this you're suppose to encourage not pressure. Sigh I'll stop here before I flood my own blog now I'll upload some pictures of the rings I mentioned earlier Enjoy.

Vintage rings me likey~

I love this Sea horse and Octopus rings totally loving it

lol a whole village on my fist?

Sexy Gothic rings are the best.

ring with Cherry blossoms really gives the Asian vibe

Yummy Rings?

they look better than the food I eat...

M.O.N.E.Y

2010-06-10T10:29:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!! Finally I got my salary XD It's not much but still it's better than nothing, really wonder when's the day that I Tee Su Ann can single handedly own everything that I could only dream off right now... haha aite back to reality, even though it's not much not to mention that I still haven't deduct RM350 to my mom and RM217 to Ms.Cheesecake TwT Aih the pain. but still manage to have some money to spend on unnecessary stuff lol it's unnecessary but it makes me happy ;P today I bought loads of doggie snacks for my babies especially Perry I bought 3 Milky Bones which for an average dog they can finish it in a day or a week but Perry a 5 months old puppy finished it in 30 minutes.... I should have bought 30 instead. I bought Cha Kuay Teow for lunch also bought Very berry strawberry ice-cream for Nuji because she was depress bout the pay also ermmmm ow ow and then I finally get to buy my brush set it ain't branded but good enough for me and it only cost me RM45 for 12 brushes. Yaaaaaaaay ! I think I'm in a random mood right now hmmmmm... neh I think I'm just in a good mood that my pursue isn't empty anymore.

After a few days I'm gonna buy that pair of heels that I've been wanting to buy for 2 months and then I'm gonna post it in my blog again Ahahahaaaa. Okay enough for my money issue
Good news for this week - finally someone applied for a part-time position phew I can at least relax for a while, me n Nuji are both getting along a lot better than we expected, I got my pay ahaha mentioning again, FIFA World Cup woohooooo! and Erie is getting Married this Saturday Congratz man!
Bad news - I'm having my driving test this Sunday and I'm nervous =.= I really don't wanna fail and pay another 50 bucks man no way, the stupid computer is seriously getting on my nerves, I don't have enough money to buy my Anna Sui fragrance TwT and it's already 2am but I don't feel like sleeping tonight when I'm actually really tired.
Tahhhh what's wrong with me I still need to work tomorrow.

Ow yea almost forgot Chi Kei!!! I hope you'll have a blast at Thailand and not getting caught by the Red Army XD remember to bring me souvenirs. Hope you'll have a safe journey back home la, we still haven't watch Toy Story 3 lol speaking Animations I watch Sherk 3 last Wednesday it was good but Sherk 1 n 2 it somehow funnier Sherk 3 is kinda....... sad. but nice show anyways I wish Toy Story 3 is just as good too.

You're my number 1

2010-06-04T03:19:00.000-07:00

I couldn't tell where did you came from
I couldn't remember what day was it
I couldn't remember how long it's been
I couldn't bring you back no matter how many nights I spent crying
I couldn't tell you how important you are to me
I couldn't protect you for the rest of my life
I couldn't tell you I'm sorry
I couldn't stop feeling guilty
I couldn't imagine how are you surviving and struggling
I couldn't stop missing you for making me smile
I couldn't cover you with your favourite blanket when you're feeling cold
I couldn't remember what coloured brown are you anymore
most of all......
I couldn't hug you and tell you how much I love you when you look at me with those sparkling brown eyes.
Nothing in this world can ever take your place
You're the best thing in this damn life
too bad it lasted so fast.
Even if I can't see you again
I hope you'll be happy and safe
and not running from the rain.
If a Genie gave me two options
being the richest person or being able to see you for even just one minute..
It will definitely be you without a second thought.

For You

2010-05-31T04:12:00.000-07:00

A few days ago someone sent a long last message to me and to several other people. Blogging about this wasn't necessary at all, but I'm feeling bored so... here you go. Don't take this the wrong way but I felt like laughing after reading that message, because I don't know how to respond to it. It's been so many years and you still couldn't figure out what has been wrong all along. You asked if someone could tell you what's happening... what did you do that made everyone distanced themselves away from you, first of all it's a stupid question, no one will tell you the truth because it's nothing you want to know. Don't even try to get emotional with me because I'm out of sympathy towards all the things that has been set and done. Sorry? what are you apologizing about? everything? which is what? even if you knew what was it can it be erase with just a sorry from a text message? We've known each other for a long time but I doubt that you know me more than 10% maybe even lesser than that.So I'll give you a clue, I'm blur, sensitive, plump...etc, but I have limits for your criticism No one likes to be a fool... and that includes me and that's where I draw the line, but you cross the line again and again, so no matter how many times you apologize it won't work because I already let you go longer than you have ever knew. I'm not being harsh I'm just being honest you're not a friend of mine anymore because I was never one of yours after all. Hope you'll change so your new buds won't act the same.

It's worse than suicidal

2010-05-26T10:21:00.000-07:00

dear Ms Tee Su Ann,
it's been 18 years of breathing...
crying...
holding....
knowing...
hiding...
and running for all that is good and bad.
please stop escaping they're still human beings
you've been buried in a dark hole and still remain untold.
rather than thinking of a way out or getting some help,
you let the rain make you drown..
actions pictured you weak even reflection is getting sick.
what the hell are you waiting for is there nothing left to feel anymore?
a truck is coming right at you, it hit you and made it the last of you.
all they could say was how are you, I really miss you but yet they don't need a tissue...
you said thank you but really that ain't the truth.
they don't miss you, they just missed you.
you said you loved me but you forgot me and left me.
invisible to you unbearable to me and vulnerable to all
i call it your broken smile because it was so fragile.
i don't need salvation or redemption, i need concentration.
justice can go missing but the world is still defending.
sympathy just escapes so easily.......
hope you can see what's inside of me
cause i'm not the enemy.

what happened this week

2010-05-23T07:56:00.000-07:00

Ow my gosh I miss blogging so much... thank god I have 3 off days per week 1st of all thank you those who have been viewing my blog even though I didn't update like I usually do. Well I didn't get like a 100 views but still thank you. ermmm okay things that happened this week was I got my salary YAY! I bought 2 Maxi dresses !!! FINALLY whoosh~ I bought another pair of heels but it wasn't that high cause my mom would really throw them away without asking, and I bought a black colour dress which I'm gonna be wearing to my cousie's wedding on July =) really excited to see them ow ow I also bought a few hair products ha ha and it's all Schwarzkopf. I've been youtubing a lot lately hahaha you'd probably know that from my fb profile pic all thanks to MissChievous again I've been playing with eye shadows a lot.

Also I made a tiny monkey with iClay and it looked like this unfortunately I lost him TwT
My days at work... like I said A girl who loves black is working with a girl who loves pink. which equals bad, now we're both doing owww kay~... boleh tahan at least we could have hated each other and could have just easily quit but I'm glad it's getting better now like my previous Facebook wall post "There's so much to say so many reasons to prove me right, but after waking up this morning... I think it's better if you pretend you're happy when your blue." Yes until now there's still things that she does makes my head explode into a million pieces but I have no other choice so I might as well just sing the song Let it be .

Okay starting from this paragraph it's about my Germany issue

I realized one thing when I bought my hair products 2-3 days ago, a lot of things I like came from Germany like my skin products that I've used for 2 years, I have sensitive skin so the only brand that fits me is Eucerin (made in Germany realized that 2 weeks ago) It cured my skin problems that I've been trying with other products that only made my skin situation worse now not even those aggressive sales girls can say anything about my skin THANK YOU!

Second thing is Schwarzkopf (made in Germany) Awesome stuff I tried their Shampoo, Conditioner, Anti-frizz Serum and Hairspray it's really great... Why so great you ask? I like the fragrance of the Shampoo and Conditioner the serum is the best one among all the other brands I've used my hair is now softer than ever Hahahaaaa I strongly recommend, and the Hairspray what I like the most is that it's odourless and super easy to wash off... I've tried using Aromatic which is really good but hated the smell so bad I washed my hair for an hour and the smell is still with me I can even smell it when I'm sleeping.

but!!!!!! since my sister "helped" finishing my Shampoo and Conditioner by Schwarzkopf, I'm now using a brand called Numis (made in Germany) which it's quite good...... again. erm it's not like those shampoos that only makes your hair smell good it really makes your hair good. lol

And also besides BMW and Mazda I fell in love with Volkswagen (yes also Germany) I have no idea why, I even like the old model which is the Beetle car invented by Edmund Rumpler. Which somehow reminds me off Hitler when I see this car.
I think it looks really cute hahaha if I could rename this car I would call it Tough Cookie XD

and the newer version, haha I have a real stupid reason for liking this car, if I really got this car and when someone I don't like wants to tag along I can say "Sorry there's not enough space" *evil grin* hahaha lameness.

oh and while I was blogging I realized the Art line pens I always use for drawing in also made in Germany which is Faber-Castell goshhhh this is creeping me out how come I didn't realized all that until now.

Ow yeah another thing from Germany... they came to Malaysia and had their 1st concert on May 1st 2010, there are 4 members in a band... all in different styles and 1 of them is usually told he's pretty.

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Yes it is Tokio Hotel. I don't know should I feel happy or weird?
yeah I think I feel really really weird right now ......really weird.

well that's the end of my Germany issue [for now] luckily I don't know any Germans, it would have been a lot weirder that way =.= hahaha Goodbye for now, see you next post.

Lebewohl !!!

Fauxhawk

2010-05-15T08:29:00.000-07:00

Hey guys... I just did a Fauxhawk yesterday after I came back from work lol but it's really really hard to wash off because of all that hairspray sigh wasted a lot of conditioner but I really like this look, I was really thrill to try it out after watching MissChievous's tutorial on youtube.. it was er 80% successful? haha I couldn't make the pony tail stand like hers, maybe my hairspray wasn't that strong.. hmm~ one of the best things to watch on youtube are tutorials because they're free & awesome? haha really really appreciate all those tutorials the usual ones I always watch are Photoshop tutorials, Make up Tutorials, How to Architect n Polymer Clay Tutorial damn nice ! you guys are great people =)

Ip Man 2

2010-05-05T04:46:00.000-07:00

The actual guy

Every time I watch Ip Man, I feel very proud to be a Chinese... and today after watching Ip Man 2 I have a new motto "Even though I have small eyes, but I'm proud to be a Chinese." He is truly a great role model... he showed all of us that having justice, modesty and concentration can bring you the greatest success.

我是黄种人

NBA

2010-05-03T02:03:00.001-07:00

Interview of "NBA" Negative Boy Actions

my answers~

1.What's the 10 worse habits you can't stand in a guy ?

- B.O.

-being more feminine than girls

-When they ask you a question, after you answer... they say no you're wrong, the correct statement is blah blah blah aka smarty pants wannabe.

-Smoking

-Trying to show off how many ex-girlfriends they have.

-being super nice when they're trying to get a good impression, sooner later returns to that StupidRuthlessNotAppealingIdiot.

-When you think a guy is hot they'll start critisizing... example: He's looks like a girl / He looks gay

-The type that loves to pay the girl's meal but never earns them.

-Making a girl pregnant and says that's not my problem.

-The worst one is the guy that proposes to the girl n then gets married but end up having thousands of financial difficulties.

-being too horny.

2. What's the 3 sentences you hate that a guy uses very frequently?

-Hah you NOOB!!!!!

-I'll call my gang to settle with you

-You won because I wasn't playing it seriously

3. What the worst thing a guy can do to turn you off?

- err.... I'll get back to you later.

Tokio Hotel live in Malaysia

2010-05-02T01:35:00.000-07:00

hey guys I just got back from Damansara with Mei Ki listening to the undang stuff, and thank goodness the instructor was hilarious...

ok now it's all about Tokio Hotel's concert yesterday... talented, good looking and a group of German Rockers~ and this is their first time performing in Malaysia, I was so proud to be there ha ha. I was still working and I could only leave earliest at 6pm but Chi Kei wanted 3pm my gosh so early, but I guess she was too worried bout the traffic jam at 1 Utama and Summit USJ *faints* then we have no choice cause but to leave at 6 o'clock because of the jam and the stupid heavy rain we manage to reach there at 7.30pm we were both so panic, so worried that they had already started the concert... mana tau we heard clubbing remix [speechless] we look at each other n Chi Kei said Tokio Hotel sings Club remix? lol So fine it's a good thing they haven't started... we [actually me] squeeze all the way to the front hahahaha 1st time feeling so aggressive. It started with some DJ playing remix songs then they introduced Pop Shuvit up the stage to perform around 4 to 5 songs after that DJ remix again, after that Bunkface !!! They were great too but they kinda disappointed me when they sang "Through my window" geram la they want us to sing and they just stand there and watch us =.= and then when the whole crowd thought TH was about to get on stage another DJ remix what the hell... again and again non stop clubbing songs everyone was sweating like shit all of us were screaming our lungs out because we waited a long time for them... after a long time "Boo-ing" finally Woohoooo~ Tokio ! Hotel ! Tokio ! Hotel ! waaaaaahhhhhhhhh aaaaahhhhhhh we love you aaaaahhhhh TH rocks [this was what we kept on screaming] it's too bad I didn't bring my camera, it's not like you get to see Hot Germans singing all the time ahhaa. The funny part is.... The DJs and the other 2 bands took out 2 hours and a half in the concert and Tokio Hotel only sang around 1 hour damn potong steam, but even though it was a short time.. it was worth all the trouble =) ow ow I forgot to mention the best performance for me was Durch den monsun haha I find the lyrics really beautiful and I always wanted to hear Bill sing the German version with the voice his having now so yeah that was great so was the rest Awesome awesome time, I love Rock concerts.

Pop Shuvit

Bunkface

My favourite! Bill Kaulitz XD

Chi Kei's favourite Georg Listing

Also my favourite Tom Kaulitz

So sorry Gustav we couldn't snap a picture of you because you were sitting on a chair n there was too many people jumping TwT

haha I'm never throwing this ticket away !

Whoa whoa.... they're telling me it's beautiful, I believe them but will I ever know, The world behind my wall~~~

Wish me luck.

2010-05-01T01:41:00.000-07:00

haiyo haiyo.... now I'm working, and it's getting so bored I don't know what to do hmm what to say~ Ah! yes later on I'm leaving my work place earlier so I can go to Tokio Hotel's concert live in Malaysia 1 Utama!!! Ahhhhh so excited please don't let anything happen to this wonderful day... of course I wanna say thank you Chi Kei for choosing me to go to the concert with her later I'll give her a big hug... secondly thank you my sister for solving my transport problem whew~ that's a relief and lastly thank you Syikin XD sorry la I didn't mean to leave you alone in the shop hahaha, speaking of that I hope I can take care of the shop properly myself on Monday damn nervous de looo haiz. Oh ya tomorrow me n wife Mei Ki is going to start our driving school, Finally man ! hope we do well la.. I wouldn't wanna fail and add on money again. Tokio Hotel / Drivers Licence / Swan USJ here I come!

Stupid shows on MTV

2010-04-24T09:57:00.000-07:00

Paris Hilton's My bff season 2

Paris, Paris, Paris... I really don't know what's going on in this girl's head, the 1st season is already a very stupid show and now shes making season 2? It's stupid enough to prove who can be your bff on a tv show,what I don't get is... is she replacing her bff from season 1 to season 2? or season 2 means her second bff??? The worst wasn't Paris at all, it's those contestants that are making such a fool of themselves just to impress her.Damn girl... seriously no offence but if I were your mom or sister I'd cover my head with a paper bag whenever I go out.

The Simple Life season whatever

starring Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie - I gotta admit, I hated the show before watching it, but now I change my mind. I feel so amused after watching it, kinda weird for me to say that... I didn't know they were soooo darn princess about everything, like cooking breakfast lunch and dinner using an iron and ironing board, doing laundry by dumping it into a pool, throwing a 2 year old boy a princess party?, getting rid a cockroach with a leaf blower??? I thought things like these only happens in comedies just I was wrong. Keep it up girls I love this show!

My Super Sweet Sixteen

Stupid stupid show.... it's such a waste of money what was the producer is thinking to make an idiotic show like this. Okey everyone knows when you reach 16 means Happy sweet 16 not Happy 16th Birthday, fine 16 is kind of a "big deal" but this show is way too much, talking bout spoiled brats man this show is spoiling them more than their parents. My opinion, if you want to make this show better is by helping unfortunate teens that can't afford to have a great sweet 16 instead of rich kids that already have more than they can ask for okey?

Made

Another "amazing" show Ai yai yai.... gosh, the show is about supporting some high school kids to fulfill their so called "dreams" to be who they wana be, helping a nerd become a rapper... a know it all into a ladies man... a bimbo to a daredevil, a lazy dork to a kung fu master??? do these sound like dreams to you? I don't consider those as dreams cause they want to "change" their image just to be more popular wtf? I do believe that people can change to be a better person a better role model but this is just too commercialized. People take time to change, everyone has their own pace.. you have to do it step by step not what you show on tv that it's so easy to change in such a short time. It's just fake to me.

I made Sushi!!! =D

2010-04-22T04:16:00.000-07:00

woohoo! Today I went to Chi Kei's house to make Sushi n Herbal Jelly ~~~
of course it wasn't as good as what they sell in Sushi restaurants, but it's good enough to eat! hohoho it was so fun man even though things got a little messy XD must definitely try to cook other stuff next time.

How to train your dragon

2010-04-20T07:44:00.000-07:00

finally FINALLY ! I watched de show. It was just another hanging out at Pyramid but at least I get to watch what I've been waiting for
Awesome!!!!!! who knew dragons can be so cute awwww if dragons really existed I definitely want a Night Fury it's Black, Fast, Powerful, Mysterious & CUTE ! awwww Toothless is too adorable man. Sometimes I prefer watching a movie with Jmie cause we usually cry at de same scene so I don't feel paiseh hahahaha, but too bad for Lee Min la she miss almost an hour of de movie curse that stupid bus, but nvm but dvd better haha can cry at home. Even though it's just a cartoon animation but I don't mind watching for another 10 times =D

小小彬最可愛!!!!!

2010-04-05T10:23:00.000-07:00

吳建豪 versus 言承旭 hahaha

just posted this because Xiao Xiao Bin is too cuteeeeee, i wana pinch your cheeks so bad. XD

Autumn's Concerto a.k.a Next Stop, Happiness =)

2010-04-04T12:06:00.000-07:00

haha anyone that has Astro in their home should have seen the recent advertisement of this Taiwan Drama called Autumn's Concerto.

Honestly I didn't really felt like watching this cause all Drama Series are the same [yawn~] boring~~~ but for this Drama, I'll say it's not bad. The beginning of the show was okey~ nothing special BUT THEN it gets better and better Hoh! I love it when I get emotional watching Drama Series the whole day. Ahhh it's already 3.30am I'M STILL WATCHING!! XD believe me it's worth watching it does include lots of similar scenes in other typical drama series but they also have more, so even though now I'm just on episode 13, I'm already satisfied. Xiao Le you are just too cute macam doraemon XP. To those who don't understand Mandarin.. there's always subtitles haha.

ps: don't use mysoju it sucks BAD.

aww look at that so sweet.

Emphasize

2010-04-02T04:40:00.000-07:00

What catches your eye for a lifetime?
What's really worth the fight?
Maybe these Historians can give me an answer to my empty soul and unfulfilled distance.
Maybe I can walk towards the world behind my wall.

Niccolo Machiavelli quoted "It is better to be feared than to be loved if you can't have both."
Peter The Great quoted "I have conquered an empire but I have not been able to conquer myself."
Confucius quoted "It does not matter how slowly you go, so long as you do not stop."
Aristotle quoted ""
Socrates quotes "All men's souls are immortal, but the souls of the righteous are immortal and divine. "
Plato quoted "All the gold which is under or upon the earth is not enough to give in exchange for virtue. "

Red Queen & White Queen

2010-04-01T23:52:00.000-07:00

inspired by Alice in the wonderland

Earth Hour 2010

2010-03-27T21:56:00.000-07:00

Earth Hour... it's nothing special but at least we're saving the world little by little, but this year I'm pretty disappointed, more than half of my neighbours got their lights on the whole night even when they aren't at home sigh~. For me I was sitting on a swing and hugging Perry for almost 20 to 30 minutes cute little rascal and then i went looking for candle in the dark hahaha I just manage to find one remaining little candle mm~ flower fragrance. Well I hope the rest of the world did what they were suppose to do during that hour. That's the least we could do.

this week's nail obsession

2010-03-24T06:56:00.000-07:00

Gradient Nails I call this Ocean Breeze

another Gradient Nails but a sweeter combination I call Plum Blossoms in Spring

Super Duper Chubby Mini Animals hahah

Owl City

Fake it all you want just get away from me.

2010-03-17T11:10:00.000-07:00

Haha I don't know why I'm hating hypocrites so darn much I feel like punching them in the face right now. Please just get away from me, I feel very uncomfortable with you demons around me, there's no button to stop you from being like that so just pleaseeeee don't appear in front of my sight please~ I really can't take it. You love putting on a mask to trick people, acting like an angel to find the right moment to attack, cry when you're actually the bully... You know what I hate the most about you all? Your seven deadly sins, you suck innocents out of people more than Vampires suck blood. You're the ones who made people keep their trusts you're the ones who made people lose their honesty you're the ones who made every ones' life a lot harder. Once again I hate you all, A lot. Why can't you people extinct shish. It's wrong to hate, but it's not wrong to defend yourselves.

What's next?

2010-03-17T02:38:00.000-07:00

Last year, everyone was busy drowning in books and ignoring everything else that is fun for SPM, hah pretty lame huh? But I guess the power of a good reputation is too strong, well I know I'm a lazy person, but I can swear to all of you I did study for the exams just probably didn't study as crazy as you all haha, nothing to say about my weaker subjects BUT the subjects that I'm really confident in gave me a B+ ? WTF chak sai man. Sigh x100, I'm really angry and upset about this I even thought of requesting the examiners to remark it once more... and mommy had to disagree in this kind of situation ~ whatever man forget it it's done anyways. Next step, 'my' decision... typical people: go for Business, go for Law, go for Culinary, go for Hotel management NO work in a bank like me NO just start working at my office NO this NO that Ahhhhhhhhh!!!! Shut up and give me a break. Do I really look that stupid to you? I have a brain that works, okey? I have dreams and a lot of em, so keep your opinions to your grand kids or something. Let's take a trip back to Memory Lane, I started off having a dream to be an Artist when I was in kinder garden there was no pressure, because mom and dad was the ones handling financial problems.. Then I wanted to be an Air stewardess when I was in primary school hahaha yeah laugh all you want I know it sounds funny coming from me lol, in primary school I also thought of becoming a fashion designer cause I love to design dresses, heels and also tuxedos I was so sure that this is what I really wanted to do, until I reached secondary sigh oh boy... I want to be a Tattoo Artist hahaha my ambitions gotten more extreme as I grow but now I'm 18, I've lived in a family filled with financial problems, I see my sister sacrifice her studies to support this home, I see people work as a promoter as a lifetime career, and most importantly I want to make my vision come true after thinking very clearly and having guidance by a few siblings I have decided that I want to be an Architect. I really wanna thank my sister who pushed me further to see a wider future and my cousin Khai Meng for being so generous to let me have a clear and big picture of what Architects are capable of doing Thank You so so much for all the information I can't tell you how much I appreciate it even when we're actually like strangers before THANK YOU ! I wasn't really interested in this before, because I thought drawing building would be very boring... but it's really not that kind of plain rectangular buildings that pops in our mind. After seeing those pictures n sketches of the building I really understand now why people call Architects = Versatile, bravo bravo... AND I don't care who doubts me, because the only opinion that matters in mine so too bad you're being ignored [fyi There's no rule that only guys can be an Architect.]... someday I'm gonna have my dream home designed by myself and my family can stay and relax and have no debts, please have faith in me mom I want you to have a luxuries and healthy life even though we argue a lot.

I love God? or is it I love myself..

2010-03-05T21:41:00.000-08:00

Most populations of we humans believe in the word God, but different Gods. No offence but I'm beginning to get really annoyed by all sorts of religions, I'm not trying to disrespect your believes... the thing is, you're not doing what you're suppose to do. I'm speaking here as a girl that has no relations with the word religion, so this is fair for everyone.... my main point of this post is about hypocrites. No matter what religion... there are always people who say that they love God everyday single day and yet they can do things to hurt people, they can be so mean to non-believers, they can do ridiculously childish things to make their God feel more "superior"... please if I were God I'd cover myself with a blanket then watching people like you ruining my image. It's true that different religions have different perspectives, but the rule that can never lose out in every religion is love. If you really think you love god... then show god that you love everyone including non-believers, if you think that you worship god then worship others as well, we all make mistakes and it's alright when we know when to quit and we never retrace our footsteps, unlike some people who gives you a warm smile at first at soon they can lose their mercy and just kick you down like that. I hate hate hate people like you, you people do not deserve to be loved by God because you are so clueless and selfish about what God wants from you. I've been to church before, I listen to beautiful speeches by a number of pastors, I sobbed several times because what they say is true but not half of the listeners can do so.. they answer A man but do you really put those words in you heart or did it just went through your other ear?
This one time when I was with my mom at Subang Parade, she met one of her friend and they chatted a long time, and I was thinking it's sure not something that I would want to hear.. until I heard her saying something about a XXXXX dislike her taking care of her sister because she a XXXXX.. then I started listening, and what a shame it is.... if you're saying that convincing people to join you're religion is saving them, okey I have nothing to say about that, but forcing them to join by brain washing them is just being rude.

For God so love the world he gave up his only son, so what did you ever do to make God that proud ? answer... nothing, nothing at all. All you ever wanted was the blessings not the honour you sacrificed nothing. You guys are just total bullshits shame on you.

God or no God ... doing bad things is bad, it's okey no one knows no one saw... but you saw the whole situation of what you were doing, so please have some self respect.

Perry is officially 2 months old =)

2010-03-02T03:08:00.000-08:00

The 1st 2 weeks

1 month later haha cute

yay the naughty fat rascal is 2 months old already =D, haiz he is a lucky one~ everyone loves him so much even my mom haha.. since my mom is so in love with him, we're keeping the fella hahaha welcome to the family boy.

Thanks Again

2010-02-19T04:32:00.000-08:00

1st person who wished me this year is ~ Seisa
1st person who gave me a present ~ Mom

19 February 2010

Tomorrow, I'm officially 18 a.k.a. legal age lol.... how do I feel ? erm it doesn't feel that much of a difference, just happy that I don't need to borrow my sister's ic to a casino or an 18 above movie hahaha. Tomorrow is my birthday but today I already celebrated at Red box with Jmie, Leemin n xxx[unknown] XD. It isn't a huge surprise but that's all I need as long as my friends have the heart to wish me happy 18th birthday. Oh yea currently I have received two pairs of wedges one pair from my mom the other pair from Mei Ki, Jmie, Leemin n xxx[unknown] (erm n I'm not sure who else shared, so sry if I didn't mention). nothing to say but Thank you... n in my 18 years of eating cakes this is the most delicious one yet, Awesome. It would be greater if Mei Ki were there, I gotta say I found out what was my present before I got it, buuuuut ! no worries I still love it thank you Mei Ki n the promoter at Miracle that pakat so well to trick me the heels were being reserved by someone else =.=" lol. Faster come back from NS laaaa~. Thank you n sorry to Jmie for going through all the trouble. lastly thank you whoever who wish me through sms, msn n fb lol really appreciated it.

20 February 2010

Today I didn't celebrate much I just watch 72 tenants of prosperity with Kar Men & her cousin Kar Men belanja btw haha. At night I ate at Victoria Station n daddy gave me Angpao woohoo! Yup so that's all =)

22 February 2010

Today I got another surprise from Masie Thank You for the necklace n phone strap, I really miss seeing you all haha... thank you everyone who participated Jmie, Evon, Darren, Kisu, Masie, Asma, Mas Mahathir n friend lol, Lee Min, Kar Men, Nik & xxx [unknown]... even though we didn't really do anything but still thank you a lots la... n sorry Masie got scolded from her mom n all Paiseh~ next time don't need already la XD. .

Love yaz

Photoshop is awesome!

2010-02-18T07:37:00.000-08:00

I've been using photoshop for almost 2 years n it amazes me all de time how they create such great effects. Photoshop can do portraits, paintings, drawings n all sorts of adjustments to get the result u expected but, a lot of people use it just to make themselves look prettier so they get comments on their Facebook [lame...~] but however it is also a great skill to master, for my best result would be this picture I did today.[it's not perfect but you get the idea]

Before

After
Before
After

btw I found this picture in some childish web teasing how people look n all, I don't think this girl is ugly all she needs is to lose some weight.. apply a bit of make up & she'll look great. so to those haters everywhere keep your evil schemes to yourself, look in the mirror 1st before you judge faggots .

CNY n Valentine's =)

2010-02-13T23:27:00.000-08:00

It's that celebration of the year again but this time it's 2 in 1, yay? or no yay? for young Chinese couples obviously no yay la havta face relatives instead of their darling. For me the most important part of cny isn't visiting your relatives even though you get angpaos. It's having a peaceful dinner with your family [Tuan Yuan Fan], if my grandparents were here maybe I wouldn't mind going back but I never get to see them in person so too bad la. Speaking of Tuan Yuan Fan, because there was not Chinese Restoran open we end up eating Korean food lol~ at least it's a little common to Chinese food.. imagine if we have to eat roti canai or nasi lemak on cny hahahaha

here are the pictures that will soon be memories~~~

Happy CNY n Happy Valentine's day.

So it has come to this

2010-02-13T22:57:00.000-08:00

and so de job i thought i'll never quit made me quit on my 9th day of work. to make it clear I don't hate Quiksilver I just dislike 1 single person that is in charge of the shop at Pyramid (Pamela), I may have the "blur face" or the "I'm easily bullied face" but you have the "everyone can't stand me face" HAH !! Since the 1st day I started working there you looked at me like I stole your boyfriend or something.. & everyone said cause I'm new so you're being hard on me, n what? second week already but you still give me de exact expression. The way you talked to me [or should I say lectured], the way you roll your eyes at me n the worst thing is the way you look at my friends n family when they came to visit...Chak Sai la~ they didn't even bother me n even if they're talking to me I didn't stop folding those bloody tees that won't stop being messy. Whenever I'm working I feel so uncomfortable cause you stare at me all de time I feel like you're gonna shoot me with a gun. The rules itself is hard to keep up with + you're attitude I can commit suicide right away~ no offence I thought I could tahan for at least one month, but after my 9th day of work I realize I don't wanna see you ever in my life... I've worked with 9 managers n 2 supervisors... some can be strict some can be racist but you are the worst. So too bad it's never too good to be true but I'll find a new job soon.

Craving instead of Earning TwT

2010-02-08T08:30:00.000-08:00

Ahhhhhhhhh Oh My Lord

working at Quiksilver isn't just tiring... the things there are calling out my name~~~
Board Shorts . Bikinis . SKULLCANDY HEAD PHONES . Roxy Bags

Yooooooooooooo I didn't even buy my cny clothes yet lol
what to do man I can't resist, who ask me la pandai pandai work at a shop selling things I like right XP. No hope, fail la haha if there's staff price not so bad but I DON'T.
Sad la if I wanna quit now, I dunno where to go. Starbucks? haiz confusing laaaaaaaa

so sad man... even it's after spm I dont't feel free at all =.="

Sigh...
Chak Sai man!
o btw this is de head phone I wanted XD

Miss Workaholic is back on track !!!

2010-02-01T06:27:00.000-08:00

good news n bad news

The good news is.... I got a job YAY! n it's one of my favourite boutique shop Quiksilver~ YAY! most of them are really helpful =) , I found out a girl at baskin working there too LOL n Hairi is really friendly THANK YOU so much!

...the bad news? They're STRICTLY STRICT ! o my goshhhh.... they're strict n picky 1.) late for 1 minute replace 1 hour 2.) whenever I go to de toilet body check 1st. Every little thing also cannot this cannot that Tahhh, but lucky the customers there are pretty nice !! but there was 2 bitches who gave me that stupid bitchy look for no reason.... Hello? I'm a promoter not your servant okey.

ow yeah another bad news is.... I love the stuff there man~~ I baru spotted to things I'm consider buying n it's already over 600bucks, DAMN dunno how am I gonna handle my salary lol.

Aiiiiiiiiihhh I'm bushed
haha my neck is killing me so bad
I'll be sleeping soon
kinda tired right now#

bubye ppl~~~

a Promise for a lifetime

2010-01-23T11:15:00.000-08:00

This promise is dedicated to Me, Kisu, + all of 92 year peeps

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This Picture above WILL BE d evidence, so neither of us especially me and Kisu... can't run away from this important yet old fashioned promise =)

The promise that I held was {Let's make a promise to each other that we will work hard for ourselves our family our career and for those morons who doubted us.} =it isn't de exact sentence but same meaning=

why all of a sudden make a promise?
well, cause we both have similar problems... financial problems that is, my friends n cousins most of you all are really god damn lucky. You may not be de happiest person on earth, but you have more than you can ever ask for, you have parents that are always concern about your education n health... you never cried or suffer through a bad childhood n never have to worry about money. So even if there's things that you can't achieve, doesn't mean is something to be sad about... at least you get to eat well sleep well n live well in a peaceful home.

even though this promise is a promise between me n Kisu.... but I really hope the rest would do de same. We may be far apart, we may not see each other like we used to, soon we might not even remember each others name or we will change a lot.
But, no matter what it turns out to be, as long as you are honest to yourself, give it your all n leave no regrets you are successful even though it's not what you've pictured.

always Take Care of yourselves to wherever journey fate may lead you to.

MAN they're hot

2010-01-21T01:12:00.000-08:00

haha don't know does this seem like me but I just feel like blogging this
ok today's topic is my loves around de world hahah

Japan
Hayami Mokomichi from Absolute Boyfriend

Tatsuya Fujiwara from Death Note

Takuya Kimura

Korea
U-know Yun ho from TVXQ aka Dong Bang Shin Ki

Kim Bum from Boys before Flowers

Byung Hun Lee from a lot of korean dramas including G I Joe

Kwon Sang Woo from Sad Love Story

Jo In Sung from Spring Days

Malaysia
Jien host

Singapore
Dai Yang Tian from The Little Nyonya

Julian Hee actor

Joshua Ang [Right side] from I Not Stupid

America
Keanu Reeves from Matrix

Johnny Depp from Sweeney Todd

Heath Ledger from 10 things I hate about you

Chace Crawford from Gossip Girl

Kyle from Click 5

London
Christian Bale from Dark Knight

Jude Law from Iron Man

Taiwan
Jerry Yan from F4

Show Lo from Entertainment 100%

Kai He Jun Xiang from Devil beside you

Peter Pan Yu Wen from A Million Star 1

Yan Ya Lun from Fahrenheit

Hong Kong
Danial Wu from New Police Story

Kenneth Ma actor

Bosco Wong from Wars of in laws

Nicholes Tse from Jen X Cops

Miss Workaholic

2010-01-19T07:36:00.000-08:00

woohoooo!
yeah I'm gonna work soon =)
after realizing de life after SPM is sooooo freaking boring n stupid
n of course lack of cash only solution is Work
hope this time I can get a job with a HIGHER [very high] salary ! so I can solve a lot of my problems n desires omg I can almost taste it *Amnesia*
show me the money money money~~
Hoh I reeeeeeally hope I'm not gonna end up with another job that pays lower than the effort I've put into work like Baskin n de rest of de jobs I've experienced. Shish.

I don't know what to blog

2010-01-05T04:11:00.000-08:00

hahaaaaaaa never thought this day would come~
but yes... it's been weeks n I don't know what to blog about WHAT IS WRONG WIT YOU! XUAN!!! O_O"
sigh......
sigh.........

well there is a few things to blog actually~ I have my Genting Trip with Jmie Leemin n Fat Ass or today's outing with Kisu n Masie n a couple of random things hmm... so why don't I feel like blogging them ? weird

ahh nvm den

I'll just talk about the movie I watched today {The Imaginarium of Dr Parnassus} apparently a lot well actually everyone [besides joben] who watched this movie gave de responds: Boring, Confusing, veeeeeeeeery boring, Yawn~, sucks, bad.... it's meaningless.
But I kinda like it hahah what's so bad about it ?
sure it's a little bit messy but it's okey werd de only thing I did't like was the part where they had sex n the ending. LOL

Aihz it's been a week + already I wonder when will Leemin upload those pictures from Genting~~~ Ah Lui faster TwT

Day 5

2010-01-02T03:20:00.000-08:00

So far it's been 5 days....
during the 2nd day the black one passed away~ maybe he was too weak, so rest in peace you little Sesame~~~
de brown one aka fat n noisy is very healthy n gaining weight... me n my sis decided to name him Plumpy cause he's fat =)
Kia kia is still the same =.= playful n naughty as usual#
I thought she would be super protective since she nearly bitten me for touching them [merajuuuuk !!!], but just de 3rd day... she tak layan Plumpy already [swt"]
She can even come in through the window n sleep inside de house like she isn't a mom at all [zadaaaoo]
Luckily there's ME de loving master is there to take care of that smelly thing hahaha perasan~
he has grown a lot for just 5 days, maybe he drank too much milk

Hope someone is willing to adopt him. [besides Wei Seng]

Pictures r uploaded in Facebook, so malas to upload here XD.

Click here to view pictures

UN happy new year TwT

2009-12-31T10:19:00.000-08:00

This is D Worst new year celebration in my 17 years of breathing~

1st - It's Pyramid AGAIN
2nd - I was late for 2 to 3 hours
3rd - Ajisen's service sucks so bad
4th - All we did was window shopping n having lunch n dinner
5th - I was worried bout de fat puppy at home
6th - We missed de fireworks because we went to de wrong direction
7th - The tower that we ordered didn't arrive
8th - A lot of random people spraying "snow" all over me damn sticky
9th - a Fucking bastard whacked my ass 3 times n said {bawah sikit} Lu Pegi MATI la !!!! curse uuuuuuuuuuuu
10th - I'm still hungry

"PERFECT" 10

shish.....

stupid stupid stupid

Tahhhhhhhhhhhh

chiak sai la

My dream or My nightmare ?

2009-12-28T17:26:00.000-08:00

Heyz...
I have a news for you people~
My dog is pregnant [Kia kia - the black one]...last time when I knew that Sheera was giving birth to 3 puppies I was so happy that I didn't sleep for the whole night, but this morning at 8am when I'm still sleeping..my sister bust in n jabbed me non stop saying that Kia kia gave birth to two puppies, well I can see that my sister wasn't happy too~ I can't tell you how scared I was, I refused to believe it n was so hoping my sister was trying to prank me... but what do you know~she not kidding for once. I remember that joy I felt when I first saw Kia kia,Miko n Ricky.... I was so excited, but this time I'm depress more than thrill to have this sudden news because firstly when the heck did she find a male dog and had sex ? According to the professionals.... dogs are pregnant for 2 months which not any of us remember her running out at all, we were planning to find a male dog that is also a Shetland sheep dog to breed. Sigh~~~ however I can't do anything now, I still love them n care about them even though they're "mixed"...they're still lives anyways. I hereby Pledge that I WILL NEVER let anything hurt the 2 innocent puppies, whoever dares to hurt them is getting it from me. ow btw one of it is black n smaller size n the other one is bigger n dark brown =) luckily I'm always free now. Ow yeah I forgot to announce, after the puppies are big enough to be on their own I really really wish soemone can adopt them, someone with a good heart that will take care of them properly.

Check List

2009-12-27T07:46:00.000-08:00

If you've constantly visited my blog you might remember an old post I blogged about stuff I want to accomplish which was "Mega Yupo Marathon after SPM"

according to the things I've listed
so far I've completed only 5 of it hahahaha fail~~
n y ? because stupid SPM mood is still stuck in my head, whenever I wanna watch tv or take a nap I automatically tell myself.... It's not time to be lazy, after SPM I can be the awesome couch potato I wanna be~ Taaaaaaaaaaa F*ck it. It's been 2 to 3 weeks after SPM~~~ y can't I relax properly WHY LA ! Even though I got over the SPM mood I sitll feel so darn lifeless whatever I do or wherever I go...when I go to the mall I wanna sleep when I'm at home I wanna go out n the worst part is..... I don't feel like watching animes/dramas/or any lame comedy n I can't DRAWWWW. I feel like killing myself so bad right now~~~~ I need to get a Job fast so I won't rot or start getting anymore weird ideas. Our class party didn't even have any progress yet TwT n Redang Trip plan is hanging by a thread because everyone is free at different times WHY WHY WHY?

I need to have a new schedule ~

* dye my hair right after de last day of SPM DONE
* BURN my letter from National Service edit* I'll just Rasuah the doctor hahahaha
* get lots of nachos n watch Anime, Movies & Drama Series the whole dayyy [*sobs*...how could he leave her alone~ Saranghae !!!] Hopefully I'll do this
* Get a FAT Roborovski from Pete! Canceled
* Buy a bunny or a Hedgehog Changed to a Sugar Glider
* Nail Art with de sampat po(s) Canceled
* DRAW DRAW DRAWWWWW . Digital n Traditional when I get back my flow
* Get a Job ! After my Birthday next year
* Reunite with Urban Groove After I get a Job
* Black tops Black boots Black eye gel Hard Core Earringssss!! REBEL Accomplished half
* Download songs 24 hours DONE
* Hang out with a bunch of ppl doing absolutly nothing DONE (n im sick of it)
* Acts Church ; ) Accomplished half
* Get an Acoustic Guitar n an Electronic Guitar If possible
* Buy Skinny Jeans When I can enough cash
* Buy Heels When I can enough cash
* Cosmetics XD -M.A.C- When I can enough cash
* Curl my hair ? neh maybe not~~~ But I did lol... [temporary]
* Compose songs Not really
* Blog Business Canceled
* shop shop shop Ahhhh a little
* Recycle ? swt" Kind of XP
* Game On ! Nope, to lazy
* well tidy up de house of course heheh erh a little
* spy on a Hobo hehehehe not yet
* make self T-shirts DONE
* Decorate my Shoes DONE
* Check out Education Fairs not yet
* REDANG TRIP !!! Still deciding

Pyramid week

2009-12-24T18:57:00.000-08:00

Whao never thought I'll get tired of going out so fast~~~
I expect myself to go out like 2 or 3 times a week, but this week I can tell you I'm really sick of going to Pyramid
Tuesday went to pyramid with Karmen n Jmie shopping like crazy btw Thank You two for de Banana Peel flip flops ^^ it's awesome!
Wednesday went to pyramid with Mas, Shen Yang, Za n Denise for bowling n Summit for piercing lol~
Thursday went to pyramid with Mei Ki, Evon n Wei Seng for Xmas eve countdown n the Red Wine n Tiger Beer SUCKS.... Tiger Beer tasted like water swt" waste of money~~~ stupid lala !
n Friday going to pyramid again n again taaaaaa!!!!

if I havta go to pyramid on new year's eve I'm gonna scream

Boring place~ Now all I want to do is stay at home with my pillow.

ow btw check out this lava lamp I bought yesterday

It's not interesting or exciting to watch but me n my sis can't take our eyes off of the blobs haha it looks like a red colour Flubber n sometimes like cherry tomatoes.... WARNING: Lava lamps are strangely addictive DON'T LOOK AT THEM !!!

Get Well Soon Ah Lui!!!
Merry Christmas Everyone n Happy New Year !
Happy Birthday Jesus !!!
woohoooo

Ignorance

2009-12-18T21:49:00.000-08:00

here I would like to bring out a few situations that might seem familiar to you.

1.) When you gossip about someone... your consequence tells you it's wrong, but you still gossip anyways. You had fun gossiping about others that you forgot what are the good times you had together n the things they have done for you. You avoid yourself from feeling guilty so you just emphasize on the bad things that happened.

2.) When you see an old lady tripped and fell down on the floor or a kid crying because he/she lost their parents... if you're reading it here now you might say of course I will help them, but.... every time I see situations like these.. people just tend to stare and walk away, unless there was someone who went to help then you'll walk over "as if you're concern".

3.) The 3 famous ratings your Friends, Family and Lover. example: When you clearly said that Friends is number 1~ please don't say it if you can't do it... Some can tell you that you're their best friend but they forget your birthday, they disappear when you need help, they don't respect you and they get you into trouble, if any of these 3 can be number 1 in your heart means you're willing to sacrifice for them, love them and appreciate them.

4.) When you found someone you have connection with, you immediately think that you love the person when it's just a silly crush. If you can't get him/her you emo all the time can't eat can't sleep asking why can't I be the one. If you do succeed being with him/her, you start getting all selfish, when friends are talking to them you think that their flirting, you don't like them going out without you and you always start arguments with him/her for very minor problems. All those are definitely NOT LOVE, to know whether you really love the person is when you feel heart broken but you don't feel sad because you would want them to be happy instead of just being yours, you would give them freedom and trust them when their with friends or acquaintances .

5.) When you litter plastic bags or papers everywhere you know it's bad... someone has to clean it up for you.. or little kids get influences from it to be "cool"... people from overseas will have a bad image for our country... n of course global warming. You think neglecting issues like these are being cool? Get a reality check please.

6.) When you see a really cute puppy or kitten.. you want them so badly n annoy your parents to buy them, and when they did.. you play with them like toys never wonder is it painful for them n you don't feed them or bathe them.. soon when they get bigger you'll think eww not cute anymore n start ignoring them n treating them like garbage.

These are not minor cases... if you continue it all the time it becomes a really big attitude problem, mind yourself please.

I dyed my Hair =D

2009-12-16T07:30:00.000-08:00

hahahaha... finally I have completed one mission, since my mom wouldn't let me out with my friends then she has to be the one to bring me to the saloon HMP !
I waited like 3 hours ahhhh but ok la at least can still get the colour on my hair
but.. it's too bright oh my god~~, sometimes when I look in the mirror I feel like a lala [sigh]
"great"..spm is over but I'm so lifeless n my hair colour is too bright =.= shish.
but no matter~ I will try my best to pursuit my mom.. then I'll go out n no one stopping me !!! XD
so gonna have lots of xmas activities to attend to [yay!] can't wait for homes, bake over n de xmas play {Esther} n also those 3 rascals coming back from camp. Then we can sing the song Let it snow !!!

Wake Up !!!

2009-12-15T05:28:00.000-08:00

WHAOOOO !!
The last paper today almost made me cry~
I finished my paper 30 minutes earlier... I waited until I finally hear the Ketua Pengawas said "ok masa sudah tamat" my tears was about to fall cause I was sooooo darn happy to get out of that hell. I felt so relief ... no exams no pn. wang n pn. ung no puny broccoli to ruin everything HAHAHA.
Oh My YUPOOOO I miss my blog so much I don't know what to type~ ahhhh
ow btw CURSE those nasty thieves !!! FUCKER... ruin the last day of spm for Masie, Kisu n WS. Haiz as if we're not miserable enough, I'm so sorry I can't help u guys. And Masie please cheer up =( I know it's gonna be hard for you to get over this but still try your best... just like Joben said, if you don't have him means he isn't the one for you, there is someone else that will appreciate you more than anything okey!! time for happy hour no emo hour.

a lot of things happened since the 1st day of blog hibernation but I can't rmb them right now so I'll just skip that.

the school magazine was insane! best one yet
n I'm so happy that I contributed 8 pages of illustrations n graphics woohoo
n i think i have around 9 to 10 pictures wot~!
our senior pages were great too... a little messy but I love it.
wow wow wow
LOL I'm out of words so I think I'll stop here n continue some other time XD
have fun yal !

--- Continuing ---

this paragraph is for a few people to pay more attention to, so here it goes
I don't wanna act like this, sometimes I'll ask myself why did I behave so different from last time? like I got meaner or something... but then when I have all the flashbacks, final conclusion is I did not change in a bad way.. but I'm not entirely right or wrong. To Wei Seng : Every time I ignore u I'll feel bad, but didn't u ever thought of de reason y I only treat u like tat ? It's because u annoy me, u know that I'm pissed but u still jab me, poke my waist or saying "what did I do?"...... When I ignore you means I need a break away from u..if u keep irritating me how do u expect me to make peace with u ? Who cares about me n who doesn't I can see n differentiate properly, sometimes u really helped me in my time of need but really hate people annoying me n forcing me into things I don't wanna do. To de rest : This time I'm not just angry because u guys because I was being scolded by my mom~ main thing is U all know that I can't go out n I don't want to, but u don't care about it u just like to force me n think that I don't mind... and when u force me I will always havta take the blame from my mom. My friends and My Mom forcing me to do this and that, I'm not your maid, I'm your friend n your daughter ok. I'm sick of it.
btw Wei Seng.. I didn't mean to do this on your birthday...I'm sorry but I really need a break.

Break Time

2009-10-31T11:01:00.000-07:00

well... SPM is just 2 weeks away so it has come to my decision to stop blogging starting now until 14 of Dec....
so to de rest of de people Good Luck n stay Alive.

here's a video from a dude called ARCHIEzzle.... i think this video is beautiful.

Hibernating Season Begins~~~~~~~
enjoy the vid.

It's Halloweeeeeen

2009-10-31T09:33:00.000-07:00

woohoo this is my 111 post on this blog

btw happy belated birthday to Mas [hope u like de locket n de card =)]
n up coming birthdays are Lee Min n Evon

oh yea to those who got food poisoning from prom
Get Well Soon = )

Anyways this is my very first time celebrating Halloween hehe (well kinda~~)
I had de longest Cartoon Marathon yet~ it's "The Simpsons"
it was filled with mysteries, man eating creatures, Homer the next grim reaper, Maggie turning into an Alien n blood blood BLOOD muaaaaaaaaahahahaa.....
and no one was home to bother me do anything hahahahahahahaaaaaaaa
sigh, If we get to go trick or treat I'd definitely dress up as a Hobo
too bad we don't have that kind of celebrations here.. You knock on someones door you'll end up being chase by a woman holding a broom, locked up in jail or something hah. ow btw The Simpsons are on until 10am so if you can't sleep go watch it on Star World okey X) . I was also waiting for Halloween episode from other cartoons, but apparently most of them didn't have it.. and those who have, stunk.. even a baby can fall a sleep watching those LOL.

Lastly I have to say HAPPY HALLOWEEN YOU GUYS~~~ see ya soon. Sleep tight and dont let the vampires bite ; D

Yupo copyright

2009-10-18T20:19:00.000-07:00

Yay! The very first Le Yupo T-shirt has been made~~~
mm... not really satisfied but still good.

Front

Back

Preview~~~

Choppie Charts a.k.a Copy Cats

2009-10-17T10:50:00.000-07:00

No one likes copy cats because they are annoying, but I have a question... if everyone hates them why are there so many people being one ? Originality isn't hard to find, It's just being who you are, and the funniest thing is.. copy cats cursing other copy cats from copying what the heck. If you like pink than say yeah I like pink, if you have unusual habits it's ok... don't act like who you're not because you want to fit in n if your friends judge you or tease you does not mean that you have to be like what they think is "in". I love black since the beginning, not because I wanna "look cool" or because everyone else thinks it's the trend or it makes me look slim~.... it's because my interests are punk rock songs and yes I think vampires are sexy n also it's the darkest colour so my eyes are more comfortable, I like other styles n genre too but not my favourite. Oh yea.. not to be perasaan, but certain people likes to come to me n act like they love Gothic stuff n someone once said to me (I'm starting to like rock songs it is soooo cool ! they are sooo yeng~) ahhhhhh hell man my ears are bleeding, what the ******** it doesn't make you look cool but more like a fool, Rock n Metal is all about de guitar solo n drum beat de Screamos n de lyrics with experiences they have been through, not how they're trying to be cool. Some thinks "emo" is very "awesome" so you act emo. Do you know why goths love black nail polish, black tops, black eyeliner n fangs ??? My answer is they wanna look dead...they hate being alive...they're emotionless...they don't have conversations...they're careless... they can't stand sunlight and they admire vampires,That's why they are like that so why are you copying them ?? I don't get it.. Punk Rock style I'm not that clear bout it but one of the main reason is they love being like a freak n they don't care what others think so that explains their weird dressings, and the well known Lolita I don't know why there are outfits like those but clothes like these are meant to be in Animes not here, people who we call it in M'sia "Lala chai or Lala mui" these people are obviously not trying to be a weirdo but to look "attractive" in the mall in supermarkets or anywhere . The worst style being copied the most is the "Yo! Was sup style".... as in Niggers' style, R&B, break dance, hip hop n rap it's what you always see on Mtv or Channel V n again you wanna look cool n noticeable you see a friend, Knuckles~ then you say Yo! Was sup my homie~ this is very stupid (I'm not criticising them I'm talkig bout you the choppie chart)... and all the other things like NY caps, big huddy jackets, Blings~~~ seriously you can copy now, but you can't keep up forever. so quit it and just be you.

Hormone Pills

2009-10-13T04:27:00.000-07:00

Some of you might know that I get very bad stomachache during "that awful time" in every month... n F**k it it's getting worse~ last time it wasn't that bad.. I can still ignore it by distracting myself, and it usually just hurts for one whole day BUT now ? three days in a row n it's damn F*******king painful.... can't eat can't sleep can't sit ! oh my gosh gosh gosh I could really kill a bunch of people at that time. My mom couldn't stand me yelling at home so she brought me to Q H C at usj 9... the doctor scanned my tummy and still can't conclude what was the problem, he said there is a possibility of having a blockage known as "Chocolate Cyst" ewww giving a bad image to chocolate lovers, n a few other things that he said might be the problem but like I would remember it. So he gave me really strong Painkillers and Hormone Pills... in a way I was excited cause I never had Hormone Pills before n kind of wondering what they would do to me ~ and my super-protective mom asked what would it do to me.. and he said it would make my skin better probably I'll lose my pimples, no more stomachache and better complexion~ de downside was that it would either make me gain weight or lose weight. And I followed he's instruction and after taking for 5 days... omg I keep getting ulcers and usually I'll gargle with a Japanese gargling liquid and it heals straight away, but these ulcers are sooooo hard to get rid off and it's making my lips swollen I can't even smile ouchhhhhhhhhhh, besides the pain that I'm still suffering.. after started taking those pills, I can't sleep at all I lied on the bed at 12am... no matter what I do I can't sleep I stayed awake until 7am... 7 hours man 7 hours!!!! from this day onwards... I HATE HORMONE PILLS FOR LIFE.

Salad Sunday !

2009-10-11T02:25:00.000-07:00

My vegetarian days are pretty tough to combine with companies, especially when they purposely hide meat under my noodles or rice so I won't notice and termakan daging all the time... please stop doing this to me and stop giving me the stupid reason that I don't have enough proteins or nutrients bla bla bla~ I'm getting very sick of it. I'm old enough to decide what I want and whant I need.. stop disagreeing with my own choices.

btw, well my family is getting used to it sloooooowly ~
that's why to show how my vegetarian days are right now
here's a few images of my "Salad Sunday" that I had for today's breakfast
anyone [especially girls] that wants to lose weight it's also advicable

For friends... and Ducks

2009-10-07T01:31:00.000-07:00

Alright....
more than 90 % of you
are getting very angry/depressed about friendship, because they didn't treat you well, they betray you, they drive you nuts...n does all sorts of things they shouldn't have as a friend. Good times can sometimes cover up the mistakes we've made sometimes we may be forgiven... but not always. When too much is too much, so please stop writing stuff that involves your friend(s). When you write stuff like that, obviously you won't think you're wrong because you feel hurt by your friend... but writing stuff that can be displayed into the whole world to see, is not nice either, unless you have a good reason. Most important thing I want you all to read here is... If you can't control yourself, don't think of controlling others. It's like you don't have a house n you're teasing someone else not having one. Ain't that weird ?? Time is the key through changes, so hope before it's too late... do what you have to do.

Now its time to talk about Duckies~~~
Have you guys ever heard of duck liver as a french dish ??
please if you've eaten this dish before... DON'T GO FOR A NEXT TIME
if you haven't ..... THEN DON"T
unless you're that heartless.....
the way they prepare this dish is started of by
catching lots of them, stuffed them in a very small cage that they can only squat in, the chefs wouldn't allow them to walk, fly, or even stand properly, all they can do is just squat until they are fat enough to be served, and when they are, the chef will force a hose into their mouth and start forcing in corns into their stomach until it burst, once it exploded they'll take out the liver when their heart is still beating, then so on with the cooking. I couldn't bear to see their faces we they're suffocating n tearing, n their legs are swollen n blood coming out from they're butt because of the amount of corns stuffed in their stomach. Please don't harm them, they didn't live for us to torture them like this.

Update

2009-10-06T05:50:00.000-07:00

I've just viewed your blog, cause my prediction says you will reply my previous post, and what do you know.. Prediction is always right~
ok.. like I said I won't forgive you all bla bla blaaa, I'm serious about it n still am so please if you don't want me to get really pissed again stop asking me what's my prob. I think you know so don't ask that question again before I hurt you in any imaginable injury I can. You know better than anyone....
n for the name appearing in my current latest outing well, I apologize~
I forgot to type your name I didn't missed it on purpose
ok? so if you want your name being displayed so badly
here.... from me to you
FAT BOY WAS AT THE MOON CAKE FESTIVAL TOO!!!!
happy ? bright n big lol
I started talking to you today because I'm tired
n I know I can't keep this up since I'm facing you everyday.
n even if I continue being mad at you
It's not changing what I want [that you caused]
so I hope you make it clear
we're buddies~~~ again
but you're still not being forgiven.

...tata...

whaaa? I get to go out ?

2009-10-03T08:30:00.000-07:00

hey lowww
in one of my previous post, I said that I was being grounded for 2 months. But today well my mom was in a really mood I guess... all of a sudden, she gave mua permission to go to both different celebrations.
[Shocked OwO"]
1st one was a housewarming at Chi Kei's new house, (awesome house btw)
But.....
someone who was suppose to be at her own house to take care of her friends as a host, went out because of some certain issue... and told me that she will be back in a jippy, and ended up coming back after one hour plus =_="""" but luckily her relatives were ok, her mom offered me Coke and Kar Foong, Beh, Wei Zhi and the rest of them came so I wasn't THAT miserable~~~
When she came back not long after WE FEAST! lol
Everyone went on the 2nd n 3rd round besides me...I wonder what are their stomachs made of Lol especially Wei Zhi after 3rd round he went 3 rounds on desserts
swt~............................
Then around 9pm, I went over to Mei Ki's place to celebrate Moon Cake Festival
Me, Mei Ki, Evon, Darren, Isaac n Joshua
so psych to light up candles ~ =D lol I still enjoy it all these years, maybe I didn't really have much chance celebrating Moon Cake Festival so kinda appreciate it more
usually even if I celebrate with my family sure to have neighbours or cousins to ruin my mood and My Lantern! [shish~] and this is the first time celebrating with friends.
I had a lot of fun lining up the candles into a smiley face n a heart shape hahahaha
Mei Ki was damn semangat to keep the candles alive
haiz but too bad we didn't have lanterns to play with >_<
then after we're done with the candles we move on to Fort Adventure hahahaha
oh ya Darren was having fun riding a butterfly ~~~ weee
n the girls are somehow into pull ups (random)
swing swing, chat chat, basket ball, monkey bars
then I went back home n now I'm here blogging heh.
It's not an exciting outing but it was a peaceful and not so crowded friend bonding experience.

My Worst Failure

2009-10-01T01:45:00.000-07:00

A tip for your daily life, Don't trust anyone and Don't listen to anyone. I have experienced failure more than once in almost everything I have, generally you feel insecure unless it's on purpose or some other reason but when you failed something that you are passionate about... it's slightly different. I failed in something that I know I'm capable of doing and getting a grade that I deserve, but whatever that made me miserable is always people around me. Honestly I can't tell who I love most and who I trust most, cause my heart is always whispering to me that no one can sacrifice anything for you, and they're always wanting more from you until you lose everything and then they don't recognize you no more. since I was young, like any typical kid on earth... just wanted love from the family wanted friends n relatives that can support you when you're down, but all these years it's always the other way, you try to be nice but they're still ungrateful. Reality is cruel because of hypocrites all over, they can twist and turn every single thing and the rest of us have to live upon this, that's why I hate this world so much. One thing I hate more than reality is my own existence, don't tell me that you are concern about me because you're my family, don't tell me that you care because you treat me as a friend. Whatever fucking shit you have in mind.. keep it to yourself, don't tell me.. because from my own theory if you love me you won't blame me for bloody things I didn't do, you wouldn't make me hate myself... if you want me you won't make me cry, if you care about me you won't stop me from doing what I live for, if you bloody trusted me like you said, you won't hide things from me and still think that you have done nothing wrong. No one likes to be in second place... so because of you all.. I will remember this forever. And this time you're never going to be forgiven no matter what. Even if guiltiness is killing you, it's not my business it's a much lighter punishment compare to what I'm suppose to do to you. Whoever that's reading this, read it zip it... if you're smart enough you wouldn't be asking about anything or anyone regarding this.

[I want to be alone forever.]

Red Alert

2009-09-28T00:11:00.000-07:00

yeaaa yeaaa
finally I got my red contact lens [ Geo Lens ] from Yau Hai Nee~
heheheh
indeed it's a new look for me...
it's so darn bright!!!!!!
which I hope when I'm using it out
no one would call any bomoh to "heal" me lol
btw here's how it looks like
a little creepy but I like it.

btw thx fat boy for de solution~~~

You are not alone REMIX

2009-09-23T22:18:00.000-07:00

This is a remix called You must stay alone inspired by You are not alone - Michael Jackson

My Version

Another day has gone
I'm still not alone
How could this be
You are here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And annoy me now oh no~

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did you made it here
Conscience whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
but I rather be alone
Though you're far away
I wanna runaway

I am not alone
For you are chasing me
Though we're far apart
I beg with all my heart
Please leave me alone

'Lone, 'lone
Yeah, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you laugh
I turn my head and stare
And you hold me in your arms
I can hear you nag
Your burdens I won’t bear
But first I gotta say
That forever can’t begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did you made it here
Conscience whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
but I rather be alone
Though you're far away
I wanna runaway

I am not alone
For you are chasing me
Though we're far apart
I beg with all my heart
Please leave me alone

Whisper three words and I'll start runnin'
And boy you know that I won’t be there
won’t be there

I am not alone
For you are here with me
Though you're far away
I wanna runaway
For you must stay alone
For I am not here with you
Though you hug me now

You’re never in my heart

For you are now alone
cause I am not here with you
Though you're far away
I wanna runaway

For you are now alone
cause I am not here with you
Though you call me now
I’m still freakin’ out

For you must stay alone...

Hope you love it cause I do XD

Damn it I want a Sugar Glider !

2009-09-22T08:24:00.000-07:00

ahhhhhhhhhh

This is sooo awkward
but yet I don't think I would regret this
Sugar Gliders are so cuddly n affectionate~
they will want you to accompany them most of the time
they can fly ! haha
and also a pocket pet ^^
just what I am looking for so long
I want them so badly !!
this is a shout out to my dogs.... WHOSE GETTING THE COLD SHOULDER NOW?
muaaahahahaha
but they cost like RM150 - RM300 each
Oh My Lord------ DX
and I was planning to get a pair
and according to my web research
they are very very hard to be taken care of

* the most well known n annoying thing is they're crabbing, which I've experienced it once at a pet shop..have to admit it was annoying~ it's like an alarm but you can't shut it off with a push of a button, but to pat it until it doesn't feel isolated/scared lol
*they tend to pee n poop on something as a mark of "their territory" (a tree/owner) you will have to potty train to avoid it from leaving a "present" [seriously]
* they would sometimes ignore you calling them when you attempt to force it do something it doesn't want~ swt"
* they seriously needs your attention if you're the owner [needed of serious sugar glider bonding]
* they have sharp claws n sharp teeth which they might bite you if you've gone too far
* they are a type of exotic animal that originally came from Australia so their almost asleep during day time n active in the dark...[alarm]
* they need the right amount of protein, fat, nutrients bla bla bla or else they'll stink~~~
* you would have to spend at least 6 hours a day with it, so it doesn't die of depression lol.

there are more info but I could only recall these few
but I still decide to get them
besides, loving is to sacrifice anyways.