I wake up everyday for a great day
but the words from my mom is hatred
depressed but all I can do is change and get to school
and when school starts the real horror begins
I have more than 50 classmates
but none were my friends
well they'll be my "friends"
just when they want something from me
until I lost all my belongings,
shs~ who wanted you assholes to talk to me anyways
they even laughed at me knowing my parents are old
bullied me by taking my stuff
pinching me
hiding my books
scratch my hands with all sorts of pens
until it has almost every color on my both hands
cuts my hair, takes my fees and hides it somewhere and so on
all I did was face down and try to get myself forget em
teachers hated me cause I'm slow in absorbing bout what they're teaching,
whole class was giggling when I was being punished
and my FAVOURITE TEACHER was being sarcastic
and I still remembered when I was 7
I got into the bus when school ended
the bus reached my house and as I was getting down
a pathetic 8 year old kid pushed me down the bus,
I tripped and fell and felt dizzy
at last realized that my mouth was freaking bleeding
and they just ignored so as the bus driver
so I went in the house tearing,
my hopeless life continue day by day
and sometimes it gets worse
continued for 6 whole years in primary school
asking myself why is life so unfair for me,
I tried to believe in love and mercy,
but nothing in this world could prove it to me,
or even fake it to me,
I hold my mom/dad's hand,
and they always shake my hand off,
my mom shouts about any pressure she had in work,
well my dad just sits there living the Fucking useless life,
my sister is having pressure of her own,
since my parents are so out of control,
and I was the only one she could let go her anger to,
I was being tortured in ways I hate so much,
but it's too much to even describe,
when I thought that god is the one I can talk to and depend on,
at the end it just feels like he isn't there at all...
and maybe this life is just a Fucking huge mistake,
I tried cutting myself but unfortunately I'm still here
I'd be glad if my parents get a divorce.

And now, I realized that life isn't so bad
cause it's because of those things that made me stronger
Fuck those "friends" now try to erase those doings talk to me on Friendster Msn or Facebook
please... I'm not that defenseless, you'll soon will meet Karma
but don't worry I won't do anything
cause I know you'll get it before you all die...
have seen you people this few years
and seems like not much has change
still ugly and childish
but a lot of upgrade in the cursing,
indeed you people live such a sad life
especially to Tho Tiek Seng and Tee Hong Soon
Never ever in my life I'd wana see you cause my eyes felt like this bleeding
& the Idiot who Beat me up de the public toilet
you gave me my worst fear a moment there
but if you ever let me see you again
I'll smack so hard your penis will be smaller than your pinkie got it ?
You're all indescribable
Sometimes I hate you
Sometimes I hate myself for being with you
Sometimes I felt stupid just wanting a peaceful meal with all of you
Sometimes I just wana walk my own road
and leave the rest behind
but at the end
I realize I love you guys
we're having many difficulties
but when I take a deep breath
and see things clearly
I find this life is pretty amazing
cause of the problems that made me tremble & but understand
It's those fools who made me protect myself
& guess what I found tons of awesome buds right now
Worked & worked for money that was my only reason
but other things I love about it is
I feel really independent
the world is filled with things I want to learn
and maybe just maybe
I fucking love my screwed up life
cause it made me the tough weirdo I know I am ^w^

New Quote: Life is just simply Bittersweet