Hello everyone,

I have not been showing up anywhere lately...
just at home trying to heal myself
I dont know whats wrong with me,
I've been having fever 3 times in a row
seriously awful.
haiz... the worst thing is... I have no idea
how am I gonna go for trials like this
or maybe I'd have to skip it
the doctor said I have to stay in a room myself
and not pass any sickness to my family
even if it isn't H1N1
cause even now, my head is aching bad
real bad.......
I hope the rest is doing good
and not getting sick.
wear a mask [good for you! =)]
sigh~~ btw my head is really really killing me now
I'll update next time
see ya~~~~~

Hello~~~
while Im feeling ok....
I'll finish blogging this right now ^^
actually, these days laying on bed the whole time
I wondered lots of things
like friends... do they miss me? Lol
did they change... r they getting ready for trials
r they alright ?
well whatever that is I hope all is well
also.. I thought about my current condition
cause it seems that I have recover a little
but I am worry that if it is H1N1....
What can I do ?
How would I react?

I've cried 4 times today...
1st time was because of something I miss
2nd time was pain n fear
3rd time was being a burden
4th time was wasting my life

you cant imagine how painful my body is
I feel dizzy n unstable by just reading the 5 page of Narnia
I can barely breathe
I feel like vomiting all the time
I get the worst headache
I cough n cough n cough
but til now.. Im still like that
I told myself " hey, maybe I am gonna die soon I mean I cant even walk properly "
I dont know what more to think
I dont know what more to write
Im going crazy
I cant eat what I wanna eat
I cant go out
I cant see anyone
I cant sleep comfortably
I cant do anything I wanna do
I cant even touch my dog
except for eating porridge eat medicine
I miss my chili so darn much
haih
thats all i guess I dont wana continue this anymore.