A tip for your daily life, Don't trust anyone and Don't listen to anyone. I have experienced failure more than once in almost everything I have, generally you feel insecure unless it's on purpose or some other reason but when you failed something that you are passionate about... it's slightly different. I failed in something that I know I'm capable of doing and getting a grade that I deserve, but whatever that made me miserable is always people around me. Honestly I can't tell who I love most and who I trust most, cause my heart is always whispering to me that no one can sacrifice anything for you, and they're always wanting more from you until you lose everything and then they don't recognize you no more. since I was young, like any typical kid on earth... just wanted love from the family wanted friends n relatives that can support you when you're down, but all these years it's always the other way, you try to be nice but they're still ungrateful. Reality is cruel because of hypocrites all over, they can twist and turn every single thing and the rest of us have to live upon this, that's why I hate this world so much. One thing I hate more than reality is my own existence, don't tell me that you are concern about me because you're my family, don't tell me that you care because you treat me as a friend. Whatever fucking shit you have in mind.. keep it to yourself, don't tell me.. because from my own theory if you love me you won't blame me for bloody things I didn't do, you wouldn't make me hate myself... if you want me you won't make me cry, if you care about me you won't stop me from doing what I live for, if you bloody trusted me like you said, you won't hide things from me and still think that you have done nothing wrong. No one likes to be in second place... so because of you all.. I will remember this forever. And this time you're never going to be forgiven no matter what. Even if guiltiness is killing you, it's not my business it's a much lighter punishment compare to what I'm suppose to do to you. Whoever that's reading this, read it zip it... if you're smart enough you wouldn't be asking about anything or anyone regarding this.

[I want to be alone forever.]