Heys it's now 12.21am well the usual ignoring my bedtime for my blog and Perry is sleeping right beside me [aww smelly fellow] anyways this time I'll be talking bout something that includes the word Lame. I blogged about lame stuff but The one thing I feel lamer than the word Lame is a Lame person [makes sense to you? no...], it can be found in any stereotype. Something I realized today when I was at work while there was nothing to do and at 1st I was thinking how the hell should I deal with all the uncompleted things in my life, things that must be done was delayed because of my laziness... and leaves my desires no where near me. I can't explain this in theory but I really wanna get that feeling out of me this instants sigh I'm sick of sighing... I didn't wanted to be the "emo girl" I didn't even want that as my title but any who that's not the point... what I really want to say is that I have been living for 18 years and 124 days and 47 minutes of this lame / stupid life. Wonder why it took me so long to look back and realize all of my footsteps were so incomplete, last month I fell in love with this motto from a HK series called "Rosy Business " I'm sure most of the Chinese knows about it, the motto was from this slave that was extraordinary who end up being the most respected guy in town and he died without any regrets, in every single tough situation he'll say " 人生有多少个十年？最重要的是活得痛快! " this motto really speaks to me. translation " live a life with one's greatest satisfaction, because you don't get many ten years in one lifetime " I don't know where everyone is going to end up in the afterlife... heaven, hell or whatever but I wouldn't wanna die and have my last thoughts thinking that I lived a life doing absolutely nothing that I can be proud of. I may not be book smart... I may not be good in math... I may not be a fast learner.. I may not be slim [lol]... I may not have anything I desperately want.. but doesn't mean I can't get there right? "It doesn't matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop" by Confucius, I never thought of getting revenge on anyone who doubts me... I never want to rub it into anyone's face when I succeeded, I just want to look in the mirror one day and say "I finally made it here". oh it's now 1.23 am and lastly I say thank you to Aaron Au my awesome cousin at US for constantly emailing me stuff about Architecture, although I still couldn't imagine what it's like to actually work as an Architect still all the information were priceless Thanks lots I wish the best of luck for your career and family =) Gracias . my Next Stop - - - Terminating all my "Lazigerms"